Alot of things have taken place since I have been on here and really to be honestr I didn't know how to say what was going on. You know how in the midst of everything, you go through a process of handling things, first there is the denial, then anger, sadness, and now acceptance. After coming home to help take care of my mother and be there for my family, my mother went back to her habit and move out. She won't talk to anybody. And when she does talk to me, she's high and you cannot be rational with a drug addict on any circumstance. For the last couple of months, I tried to talk to her, wrote a letter, and even argued, but she has let her addiction take and right now, I feel that there is nothing I can do right now. I wish and pray that she will want to quit before she dies and right now, I have to accept the fact that may happen sooner than I thought.
Right now, I am working as a secretary for the Family Social Services in my area, but you know it is not what I want to do and so far finding a job in television in Chicagoland area is too hard 'cause more and more local TV station are laying off left and right, but I still kepp my ear to any position in TV there and anywhere in America. Now, I am just being a normal adult, going to work everyday and comin home, nothing exciting and no drama.
I hoping that my life and the lives around would get better, but until I have to live. I am sorry that I stayed away for so long, but I just didn't feel like sharing my feeling so soon and I didn't know how I felt. I am back and here to write, read, and listen.
