well really it would help if everyone knew the story of me and paul- if not read my blog called "delete person"
so i was all ready to cut paul from my life- i hadn't spoken to him in a fortnight and felt no real need to, i dont see him in the same light anymore not even as a friend.
but he text me...
he has missed me and wants me to go round to his one day next week...
i dont know what to think of that- im guessing its because im the only person that REALLY knows him and he has missed me as a friend- but the house invitation is setting off warning bells!
this could be the chance to save the friendship- i really dont feel THAT way about him now anfd he has made an effort with me witch is very rare- so part of me wants to go for that
part of me wants to go to show him i dont feel like that
and part of me wants to go because im curious as to wether seeing him again would make me like him again- but that part of me also tells me i shouldn't go...
my brains about to explode! honest to god Paul's sole purpose on this planet is to drive me insane with over thinking things! it must be!
PLUS all this came the morning after i'd been to a party and stayed up talking all night to this really nice guy that i kissed, and it wasn't just a drunken thing because we were both sober.
so what do i do?
please help
love
mindmushedphie
x
