Oh it feels like months since I had a smile on my face a twinkle in my eye and a flutter in my heart but today I found my groove again.
I've been giong through a major life issue, physical too, not pleasant at first because I kept fighting it, me, my life and my future. Only now having released myself from my own mental chains can I finally see that I did good, I learnt my lesson, I solidified my future, and my present with awareness.
Thats all it took, so simple now but last week well... lets say that it was difficult to find the pocket of air above the water I was desperately trying to find under the blanket of my own shame, pain and heartbreak.
Everything seems easier now, although I'm still physically going to feel this for a while I feel stronger and more able to cope, to be a good human being and be the best person I can possibly be.
To those friends who lent an ear, shoulder and many words of kindness and understanding thank you so much.... the very few I trusted here with my situation have been ... (finding the right word) true to themselves... noooo more like supremely wonderful friends you have been gentle with my heart, along with a kick up the butt as well, a little reality call and lots of support.
So I'm back!!!! yay!!!!!! hope you didn't miss my filthy mouth, my crude jokes, my indelible bounciness, optomism and absolute stupidity! if you did get ready, I'm feeling a little oddball again... :-}
