Even though it's been Months since I last stopped by. I have been fighting a slow recovery after a hip replacement and femur wiring. Anxiety attacks caused me to drop in a fit over imagined dangers - this in the safety of my own home, fer Pete's sake!. Thankfully my ACC case worker authorised psychological therapy to help me deal with the anxiety. She also authorised physio-therapy and occupational therapy to help my body to relearn how to stand upright, walk, and do things for my self. In all this time (the accident that broke the hip was in October last year!) DH has been patiently assisting and caring for me, even though it has frustrated the bejeesus outa him to see how slowly I have progressed.

This week has been a week of landmarks. It's amazing how small things we take for granted can become significant milestones. I have managed to bake a batch of muffins, using a prepared mix and apples. I have managed to hang six items of laundry on the washing line outside. I was able to go for a walk with my therapist for about twenty minutes up the road and back.

In a couple of weeks I have a meeting with my ACC case manager. She expected me to be ready to return to work about four months ago, so I expect she will declare I have to come off their books and get back into work.

Unfortunately, being the real world, my job has not waited for me. Rather than employ someone else in the interim, they have switched the work load to other employees, even though it is not within anyone else's field of expertise. The other lecturers are struggling but can do/say nothing in protest. In the meantime, i have no job to go to, so will have to keep myself busy at home while I look for a clerical or office job. In this burg such work on a part-time basis is very hard to come by, so it may be a lo-o-ong time before i can contribute to the household budget. And I hate the idea of not contributing. So I guess I'll have to focus my further recovery on re-mastering household chores and routines, so DH can focus on earning for us.

There are times when I wish I were part of a community church group for mutual suppport. But it would seem so shallow to roll on up to church only now when I have needs, instead of being part of providing community help all this time. Never mind - if I pray I will find comfort and maybe some resolution.