yesterday was my first red sox game, which is fairly shocking since i am surrounded by fierce sox fans. Boston Red Sox versus the Baltimore Orioles. we arrived at 5 (two hours early) because my foot is fucking broken or something and i couldn't walk around the city. my mom and i sat there watching the journalists and photographers down on the field observing the opposing team. A particular woman caught my eye, perhaps because she resembled my mother. Short, chubby, with blonde hair. I was very curious to see the woman's face. For a good five minutes, i awaited her move and finally she turned her head. The woman was asian. My gut sank, and i became very irritable. So many different emotions and thoughts were gushing inside. I was angry at this woman for dying her hair blonde. Terribly angry. when a woman is not comfortable with herself she just has to color hair, and starve herself for a week. Thin, white, blonde. why has that become the comfort zone. 'Low in self confidence? Become average.' what the fuck? what kind of statement was that woman trying to make? she should be proud of her ancestry, but instead she was attempting to resemble a w.a.s.p. housewife from new england. she is telling any other asian female that she is ashamed of who she is, and ultimately telling them they should be too. fuck. i wish i could have marched onto that field and shaved every dyed strand off her head. i understand it's a free country, and we are allowed to transform our bodies all we want but i think people are forgetting our youth. i'm not saying i'm against improving your looks, or portraying yourself to others as you view yourself (i.e plastic surgery, gender reassignment.) however, trying to camouflage your nationality is fucked. completely fucked, and i scorn anyone who goes through with these heritage thrashing procedures. there is a difference between self-esteem problems and mental health issues.