If nightmares tell you something about yourself then I have some work to do!
I had a dream early this morning that I had accepted a job back at the non-profit that I used to work for...there was a fund-raising event going on and it was a good kind of hectic. I was working with a girlfriend of mine (who I actually know from a job prior, but hey, in dreams you can morph things together....)
We were happy-go-lucky...confident in our work, talking a mile a minute and enjoying the chaos. But I soon found myself being chastised by the managers. Their words made no sense to me and I was arguing that they did not understand, nor did they make sense. Along came the regional vice president who was as smug as ever. In real life, the last time I saw this guy he actually told me to "get over myself". In this dream, my contempt was as fresh as ever.
In my dream I made the decision to leave that company again and I went around ranting and raving, making a real federal case over it. I could not tell enough people how I had been wronged, how stupid the management team was...I told my friends all about how I was abused in a low, conspiracy-toned voice...I wanted them to keep it on the DL, but I wanted them to know.
In real life, that former work place eventually fell apart.
Not because of anything I did or didn't do...it was poorly managed and the fall of the pompous was a good bet a year ago or more. To a man, the entire work force left. I now have some good friends at good companies and we have kept in touch, attended each others' family things...really, it was all good. The most obnoxious of them all, back then, the VP was demoted and in real life now, he "serves" us at our new foundation. How funny is God? What goes around, comes around....doesn't it?
Not because of anything I did or didn't do...it was poorly managed and the fall of the pompous was a good bet a year ago or more. To a man, the entire work force left. I now have some good friends at good companies and we have kept in touch, attended each others' family things...really, it was all good. The most obnoxious of them all, back then, the VP was demoted and in real life now, he "serves" us at our new foundation. How funny is God? What goes around, comes around....doesn't it?
So what is the problem?
Well, I do not like the girl in the dream...the busy body...the instigator. I do not like the gossip, the girl who was gloating at the others' misfortune. I was actually feeling quite smug about the fall of the former team, and in my dream, I let them have it with a litany of verbal abuse.
Ew. Upon waking, I thought...what in the world was that about? I recounted each person in the dream...blessing the friends with whom I am still in contact with. But then I also blessed the work I did with the haters, as well as the people...one by stinkin one.... In all my stretching to get around, above, beyond...these people, they actually helped me and enabled me to grow into a better person. I am a strong force in my field, perhaps because of them too...I must admit it...they changed me for the good.
Now you may have guessed that I did not respond kindly to the man who told me that perhaps I should get over myself. Frankly, I sneered back and practically spit at him
"YOU CAN'T AFFORD FOR ME TO GET OVER MYSELF". (hehe, I thought it was brilliant at the time, being a fundraiser and all...but geez, talk about pompous???)
But now, he is probably very upset at losing his job. He is probably embarrassed in front of his friends, colleagues...and who knows how he has had to lean on his wife and kids...I feel bad. He's just a person, ya know?
His only mistake was pretending to be smarter than he really was and not allowing others to shine when they already were. Which reminds me that I should not pretend to be smarter than I am...and that everyone has their thing and way to shine.
Note to self: get over yourself!
So, tell me....who has pushed your buttons, made you stretch, grow and become? and can you thank them yet?
talk to you soon, xoxox,
Mamie
