I feel as though I have no choice.  Either leave my family or become a liar.  Leaving my family is not an option right now.  So this is what it comes to.  If I want to share intimacy with a woman I have to become a liar and say that I’m single or divorced.  And then pay the price at some future date if and when the truth finally comes out.  Honesty and integrity are at the core of who I am.  Yet so is passion.  I’ve done without passion for too long.