Wow, my first post was a rant of sorts! I just needed to get that all out. It's been a long day. My goal of transcending and become more than just a "survivor" is a work in progress. I hate the diagnosis of PTSD that I've received, but truthfully, the model of PTSD fits a lot better than diagnosis' I received as a child, such as major depression and bipolar. It's funny... None of my therapists or psychiatrists wanted to talk about my abuse. They just wanted me to take pills to feel better. I argued that I didn't have a "mental disease", but that instead, I was suffering the effects of abuse, and would rather deal with that. It was a No Go. Now I AM being mindful, dealing with the abuse, and psychiatric-drug free.
Okay, I'll end this here.
everythingyouthink posted on Jul 03, 2008
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secretlife said on Jul 03, 2008....
i commend you for being brave enough to face your past and attempt to deal with it without medications! good for you! -
wombat said on Jul 03, 2008....
I am a survivor myself. I hear you--loud and clear. I just learned how to do this from friends here, so now is a good time to use it. This link is for you, EYT. -
gogettergirl said on Oct 18, 2008....
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gogettergirl said on Oct 18, 2008....
Believe it or not, getting a diagnosis of PTSD saved my sanity. Until then, I sorta thought I was a paranoid schizophrenic. I sure as hell was scared of everybody and certainly didn't trust anyone. My doctor told me that all the trauma I was feeling was just the normal response to the abuse I had experienced. So you're ok my friend.
I know what you mean about therapists not wanting to talk about the abuse. I have 2 particularly difficult sessions once when I was bringing up and then 'vomiting' out a lot of pain, fear and hurt from a particularly bad abuse experience, and after that, my therapist wouldn't let me talk anymore. She just kept trying to put me to sleep everytime I came in for a session, so I ended up having to go to another therapist. Keep shopping around till you find one you like, and don't feel like you have to stay with one therapist forever. Each one brings a different perspective to the table, so I like to try out different ones.
Your town might have SOAR who can help you out, and they're in the phone book.
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