So i had a checkup with my surgeon and nutritionist yesterday.
I decided i wanted Phil to go. This way he has a better understanding of what im actually going through and exactly how important it is to me.
I think its always better to get an explanation from a professional...
We both took work of and drove three hours to my appt.
I was honest with my nutritionist that i had sorta fallin off of the health bandwagon and was eating less but not paying much attention to what i was eating.
She was disapointed but very encouraging and reassured me all hope was not lost.
We got me back on track and have reestablished my goals and game plan.
I was really nervous for my appt bc my weight loss had sorta plateaued. I havnt been doing naything consistently. Excersize was spontaneous and not routine. I continually try to make the best decisions when it comes to eating but i dont always get to choose the meal. Ill just eat the healthiest of what is presented. Thats not good either. So i was very stressed about it. I thought i was a failure.
I spent thousands upon thousands of dollars for this procedure and 6 months later my numbers where trickling off. I was disapointed in myself and felt like such an asshole.
Thinking what have i done? How could i let this happen? Why cant i just do what i need to do?
So in January i weigh 350lbs. it is now July and i weigh 260 lbs. In 6 months ive lost 90 pounds...Thats amazing! But this last month i only lost like 5lbs. So for the weight to be melting off of me and then to almost stop really freaked me out. I was terrified...
Well they weighed me and my dr was "omg! U are doing great! This is amazing! How do u feel!?"
I told him that i felt good but was worried because i didnt hardly lose any weight in june.
He said "Christina, i dont think u can expect much better result u cant keep losing 15 pounds a month it will slow down. From this point on i only expect u to lose a pound or two a week, no more, anymore would be unhealthy. We said at the beginning that our goals were within the first YEAR for u to lose 100-50 pounds and here u are 6MONTHS in and have lost damn near 100 pounds...BE HAPPY!!!"
i said "oh i am i am, im extremely happy, i just dont want the weight to stop coming off..."
We discussed it further and decided i was doing great : )
He put 3 more cc's in my band because im still eating a lil more than i should be.
I have a telephone appointment with my nutritionist in 4 weeks.. .She said with my recent slip ups she was gonna "hold me accountable" lol..i thought that was great that she cared so much...
Its not for money either, i paid a solid one payment fee for her services unlimited for a year. and she wants to "make sure" im on track by giving me phone calls.
Thats great. Im really glad i went through with it.
Smartest decision i ever made in my life.
I wouldnt have been able to do it on my own...
Phil was amazed by it all..the Doc pretty much explained everything to him.
He got to see the Doc inject the saline into the port of my lap band.
He was so cute and supportive asking the dr for recipes and meal plans so that he can cook for me and help me and push me and try to keep me motivated...
By the time we left Phil had a manila folder stuffed to the gills with information : )
I love him...
He was looking at it all on the way home "baby, i just dont know where all this weight is gonna come off from" He starts touching random parts of my body that he "loves" and continues "nope, u cant lose it from here, or here, no definitly not there..."
Im just giggling at his sweetness and assure him that he will be happy with the results and all those parts that he loves will be the same just smaller : > ....
It was a great trip. We also got to see a couple of old friends we hadnt seen in a while. We didnt get home until 4am...I woke up at 7am. Im exhausted...
So im back on my bandwagon and this morning i rode my bike to work. That is gonna be my new excersize routine. I didnt want to carve out a time to "workout" so now my bike is gonna be my transportation to and from work. Excersize- check.
Eating is back to healthy...im gonna go to the store at my lunch break and buy a bunch of meals for lunch for me to eat. Thats my biggest problem is not planning...
Anyways, im gonna do better. Starting NOW....
The Doc reviewed my "end goal" i want to weigh 180 pounds. That is my healthiest weight according to the charts of heighth and junk....
Well the doc measured my wrist and ankles and the width of my shoulders and said that i shouldnt weight 180...These "charts" are a rough estimate based on average....
I guess im really big boned. I didnt think such a thing existed i just thought thats what fat people in denial said. But i guess its true...He said he would be shocked if i got to 200 pounds and about 220 would be what he thinks is healthiest...
I told him im shooting for 180 and if i end up at 200 ill be happy but that 200 is doable for me. I have weighed tht before and i will weigh it again.
He smiles pats me on the back and says "good for u, im so proud"...
Im very happy right now...
I have a great life.
Great boyfriend, so supportive and loving, he is soo amazing.
Great job
Great family
Great people who care about me
Money in the bank
Clothes on my back
Shoes on my feet
A warm bed to sleep in
Great friends who love me...
I really could not ask for anything more...
Im sure i will bc its natural for people to want and complain about what they dont have..
But just to put on record.
My life is fantastic and i love it...no matter the small problems everyone has.
In the grande scheme of things im pretty fucking lucky
And extremly great full for it all...
oh and lets not forget my knew rockin bod...
Well i dont know about rocking but its definitly an improvement : )
