I have stopped blogging in all my sites for a time for many reasons:

1. Its addictive – Instead of spending time on other things, I fill the tiny void in my time with writing. Actually, there is no void in my time, sleeping is not a void, it’s a necessity. But I try to create one just to blog or to read other’s blog.

2. I indulged in my other love – While I like to write, I have started to like testing my skills in Photo Editing and Lay-out as well. And this has taken almost all of another made-up ‘void’ moment of mine. And yeah, this hobby is another bloodsucker. Once I start, I can’t stop. But now, I am contemplating of leaving this too for it has possessed me and my job. I have stopped looking at my photos for days now and that’s quite a success in my withdrawal.

3. I have to make money – Yeah, that’s pretty much it. Get off your ass and work, young lady! I need not say further. Money, money, money.

4. I am afraid of my realizations – Blogging sorts out my feelings and gives clarity to my rather tumultuous thoughts. Sometimes, it’s too confrontational I don’t like it. Self-realization and admission are good but a bit haunting at times. I mean I had a few times when I reread my blogs and say “Did I actually mean this?” “How the hell did I come up with that?”

5. I have no inspiration – I think this count but not really. Inspiration could be anything, right now there is nothing that motivates me to keep writing. Well, it’s not sad, it’s empty.

But here I am anyhow, blogging my thoughts and asking myself why am I here back for? I should escape before this gets me again and lose my most precious and needed eyeshut. I feel cheated and denied. It sucks.