This has always been my feeling. I have however changed my mind recently. I originally wanted to create a website that would document my thoughts. I am however a lazy individual and easily distracted. I would like to say this would be a blog of happy thoughts and great accomplishments. It is not. This blog will be more of a documentation and possibly explanation of what is inevitable. It will document the thoughts and feelings that will eventually lead to my ending my own life. I would like to say I am a seriously depressed or disturbed individual. This is unfortunately untrue as I see it. I am unable to come to any definitive reason I feel the way I do. I do however know that when the dark thoughts, the listing of the many ways i can end my existence come to me their is a narrative in my head. This narrative I hear is not a voice I am not crazy its just the way my thoughts are portrayed to me. This narrative is what I feel will give insight into why I took my life. I will add this url to my living will and maybe it will possibly help those I leave behind understand why I did the things I did.