I started taking birth control pills on the 26th. Everyday I wake up with a throbbing headache. I have never done well on birth control pills. I told that to the RE and the nurses but, it is part of the protocol. They want to make sure you won't get pregnant before you start your stimulation phase. Well, considering I had my tubes tied 13 years ago and haven't had a successful pregnancy since it would seem that I am safe.
I did get pregnant early on in my marriage. One little egg met up with hubbies sperm but it never made it completely down the tube to implant. It implanted in my right tube. I went in to surgery to have them remove it and to untie those things. Which was unsuccessful.
So, now I am stuck taking these stupid pills that cause migraines. I have been nauseas for days now. I can't wait to stop them and see what the Lupron does to me. It is adventure in your own body.
I keep hearing all the horror stories from other IVFers. They go through all this to have only one egg and it fails to implant. Back to square one. That scares the shit out of me. I know that it is a possibility.
I really have been trying to take it one day at a time. Not really thinking about what could happen in the next phase but, it is really hard to do when you are doing this for your future family.
Hubby is missing the boys and he isn't even home. He is in Detroit...heading home this evening but, he is so used to hopping on WOW and seeing the boys there. They will play for hours together. The X doesn't have internet right now so, he hasn't gotten to play with them in the past couple of days and he is already missing them.
I am trying to bond with my daughters. It is easier with the youngest. She is more open to me. The oldest only came to me to ask to take a pregnancy test (negative). She only talks to me when she wants or needs something. The youngest and I are going to lunch today. I offered up a movie but, she wants to hang with her friends. So, I might just go watch Wall-E on my own if I can get rid of this headache.
Today is Cycle Day 6. I have to keep track for the IVF. I will start stims around the 22nd of July. About 10 days of that and they do the retreival (Aprox. Aug. 1st) 5 days later is the expected Transfer day (August 6th). Keeping my fingers crossed!
