i'm up.
and it's really really late.
i'm tired.....sleepy.
but i'm not.
i'm at my sisters house.
not sure what i want to do or where i want to go.
i was excited about my time off.
i have a month.
but now i don't know what to do with myself.
my plans have all gotten turned around...i'm not sure if that's good or bad.
i'm just tired.
and i'm not sure what i want to do with myself.
the guy had to move......so he's far away again
but i'll have him for a month.....so not sure how that will go.
i love being in this area.
but i hate staying with my sister.
i feel like we can't talk.
about anything.
she and her husband are fundamentalist christians.
i'm not.
i read stories to the kids, and they are all about god. cause that's the books they have.
i suppose complete brainwashing does require total immersion.
it just gets annoying after a short time.
i feel like i can't go out or anything....like they're my chaperones.
and i'm the older sister!! *laughing*
i'm just not the "responsible" one.....not that my sister is......she just has a husband who is all to happy to tell her what to do and she is all to happy to listen.
would drive me up a wall! but.....she seems happy. so i'm not going to judge
the bed here is horribly uncomfortable...which is most of why i am still up.
but...i'm falling asleep.
so, i guess this is the end.
Comments
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vacantmind said on Jun 30, 2008....
Fallyn, I hope you got some rest. Not really being a God-fearing christian I understand where you are coming from. I have family that is the same way. I reword their books all the time or make up my own stories to tell the kids.
How long are you staying with your sister? The entire month? I hope that you can get some time to pamper yourself a bit.
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botoni said on Jun 30, 2008....
Fallyn, staying with a family member who has a whole set of different values can really take its toll. I've been there many times and you definately have my sympathy. If sleeping is coming slowly you might try something I recently discovered. Apparently there is something in honey that works as a sleep enticer. A teaspoon should do it (maybe in a cup of tea). Works for me. -
froggie_51 said on Jun 30, 2008....
Sounds like you need some ridlin to calm the hell down. -
Fallyn said on Jun 30, 2008....
vacant...oh no.....just a day or two...i'm back home now...but sis and her kids came with me.
i don't know. *shrug*
botoni...i'll try that. thanks.
froggie.....*laughing* sounds like it huh? i don't usually have trouble sleeping.
not since i left my ex anyway. *shrug*
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cuppajava said on Jul 01, 2008....
Hi, I know that you are back in your own home now - but i also know how weird it is when you have to go and stay with family.It is hard to believe sometimes that this is the same family that you grew up in the same house with.It is strange how both time and space aprt cahnges people.I know people also change as they get older too. But then again - you need a break from your onw routine again every now and again i suppose. I do the same sometimes.I get pushed in to it sometimes by my mother in law - i still go and visit them all the time and the wife and i spent the forst 7 or 8 years or so living in their house.it was a big house,so there wqas enough room for evryone - or so i thought.Then the rest of the family - brother and sister and law - started getting on our nerves a lot - so we decided to move out. Needless to say - I go back there after all these years to stay over for a night,and realise the next day,that the reason why i moved out then, are still valid today !!! -
Fallyn said on Jul 01, 2008....
cuppa....exactly.
sometimes people change...but more often they don't.
i'm learning that the hard way.
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