so yeah.  the daughter goes to get lunch with  her bf, doesn't bother to tell me she is going, doesn't bother to ask me if I want anything, doesn't bother to tell me she is coming back.  T comes home.  Why are you crying?  where do you hurt?  I don't hurt.  I don't fucking hurt.  All I want to do is take a shower and no one understands that when I say I need to do something that means that I feel I can do it right now.  Not in 5 or 6 hours.  I am afraid to take a shower by myself because of what happened the last time, but that is okay.  I am going to do it by myself. and to hell with eveyrone else.  I'll stay.  No you can't stay, you have to be back to work by 1 and it's now 1230.  I can't take a shower and dry my hair and rebandage in less than 30 minutes.  I just can't do it.  It is going to take me a minimum of 45 minutes probably more like an hour.  well what do you want me to do?  Nothing, not a damned thing.  I'll fix you something to eat.  I'm not hungry and when i am hungry there is food out there that I can fix easily.  Like the sandwich from last night, like the salad from your friends house.  I can fix myself something to eat, I can do at least that much.  I just CAN'T TAKE ASHOWER BY MYSELF.  DON'T FUCKING ASK ME IF I WANT YOU TO COME HOME THIS AFTERNOON TO HEP ME WITH A SHOWER.  and in the same breath tell me you have a days' work to do.  That just doesn not make sense to me.  You don't make sense.  I don't want you take off work, I just want a fucking shower.  I sent you an email this morning askinig y ou to come home at lunch so I could take a shower.  You never read my emails.  I tried to make it convenient for you but you never understand that.  Get mad at me, go ahead.  Don't even try to understand how I am feeling, don't try to compromise with me.  Just get mad and walk away.  Walk away and make me feel like I'm not important.

I can't fucking beleive this.  You come home and offer to stay so I can take a shower, in the same breath you say you have things in the truck to unload before it gets hot.  What the hell???  Why bother to even come home?

Right now at this very minute I am sorry I had this done.