I'm tired of the same old story. No light at the end of this chapter! So, i'm turning the page, going on with the rest of the story. *smile*
I'm restless today. My cleaning job called this morning and cancelled till next week. So, i'm off today and the man of the house is here, doing nothing too. huh!
It's been a month and he's nickels and dimes aren't getting it. If i have to totally rely on myself to get it right ....well i don't need any extra baggage, which has no benfits?!
I have a choice with this next chapter, do i get an evening job so i can afford this place i am in now. Or do i find another place? huh. Still i'll need more income coming in to make ends meet without doing without. huh! That takes care of where this next chapter begins. *smile* I'll stay!
So he goes! :~O Now how the hell do i do that? huh....sigh! This is not going to be easy! He is enjoying himself too much on his vacation! grrrrr Lordy, can i do this? Am i brave enough? Strong enough? I should of left well enough alone last year! He lefted me.
A plan B "could" go down, another way, a chickenshit way out. I could do as i have for many years now BUT do as he does.... as he wishes! Only thinking of myself. And "use" his nickels and dimes till i "get it together", get more work or a second job. I don't want or need to go off half-cocked! Or is this an excuse?! huh?
All i do know is it's time to roll with the change!!!! The change in ME!
Believe me when i say this, this attitude is good. It's been coming for some time now. This is not a new thought. Now i'm going to act on it! I have to....huh?! raised eyebrows high! lol. Lordy.
This is a reminder for Me-Myself&I. We have blended in harmony. *smile*



