Hi there,
Thanks for reading my blog. It would be greatly appreciated if you could please leave any comments you have as well as any suggestions and experiences that you have had.
i am a 23 year old female who has always had an interest in BDSM, and am thrilled to have changed the long term relationship with the love of my life into that of Master/slave (i being the slave). Although it has long been of interest my knowledge is fairly small, largely due to my only having internet access at home and living in New Zealand where resources and information on the subject are extremely scarse. Therefore, i hope that this site will allow me to gain more information for my Master and allow O/our relationship to develop further.
Although our relationship has long had an element of bondage, it is only over the past month or two that we have begun looking at the Master/slave thing seriously. For Him, it is hard to utilise the control that i have given Him, although His actions over this past weekend suggest that He is adjusting. For me, it is difficult to obey Him, although i am not sure why. It's almost as though i want to test Him, to see where His boundaries lie. Although i do it without thinking, it seems like i struggle to believe that He means what He says when He places orders so that i can gauge whether He actually means what He says.
Since neither of us have any real experience in this whole thing, it would be greatly appreciated if anyone can help by describing what training they had and how it was done. Although we have the theory on how to do this, a lack of practical suggestions and actual examples has us pretty confused. At the moment i am like a puppy - enthusiastic but untrained and eager to learn. Unfortunately, my Master does not yet know how to make me the perfect slave and so we are using trial and error, with too many errors.
We have a contract and i would be happy to stick to all the rules, but at the moment it's far too easy for me to break them and get away with it. Occassionally i do get punished for breaking the rules, but Master is not consistent enough to make me follow them. I am very good with boundaries and rules once they have been enforced, so it is difficult for me having so much freedom. If anyone can tell me of any punishments that can help to keep me in line please let me know. i will pass them all on to my Master and post blogs on their use if desired by the comment-placer (and with my Master's approval).
If anyone out there can help me by providing a first-hand insight into slave training and discipline/punishment that would be greatly appreciated. All suggestions will be considered by my Master, so anyone who is able to share their experiential knowledge would be highly regarded. If desired, i can detail how they worked in following blogs. If You are able to help with my training please do.
