All we have left to do is attend the orientation class on Tuesday. Then I will have my injections class on July 1st or 3rd. My cycle starts as soon as Aunt Flo shows at the end of this month. I won't start Lupron until around the 16th of July and the stimulation around the 28th. If all goes well Retreival is the 8th of August and transfer the 13th.
We saw the Social Worker yesterday and she asked if I suffered from PMS. I said "Ya, I get a mild headache beyond that you would have to ask hubby." Who chimed in quickly with "she does get a little bitchy." LOL! She told him it will be alot like PMS in hyperdrive. If I cry during movies (which I do) I will cry during commercials. "Just understand that she will know that it is happening but she won't have alot of control. She will snap at times." she said.
She told him that even though he was a part of this process it really was about me and what I can and can't do. Like no smoking, drinking, or caffeine. I can't lift anything more than a gallon of milk or raise my heartrate above 110 bpm. I was going to sleep alot and be in pain quite often. My ovaries were going to become engorged and that is unpleasant.
He left there with a better understanding about how this is going to effect me emotionally as well. The stress is unbelievable. She explained to him what other women have explained to her. One of the most stressful times is the two week wait. One minute you will believe you are pregnant and the next you will know for sure your not. It is a rollercoaster ride and very hard to deal with.
I was happy that someone else explained to him what I have been telling him all along. He still believes I won't be SUPER BITCH but, I think it is easier for him to live in his delusions. Plus, he will be traveling alot and sees that as a way out.
I am considering sending the kids to Kansas because I don't want to be vicious and vile to them but, at the same time they push every little button they can. The boys are excited about the possibility of having another sibling. The girls went from being excited to being pissed off. It changed the minute we started down this road.
They believe that we don't have the money to take care of them so, we shouldn't be having another baby. Of course, they don't lack for anything. They are just seeing less money come there way and think we should pay for the tagging and insuring of the oldest car. Or we should pay for her rent when she does move out. Things that wouldn't happen with or without another child.
It is also their way of sticking the knife in. They see the opportunity to hurt me and take it because I didn't let them go out or spend the night at someone's house. I may pay the Ex to come and get them and keep them for a bit. It would relieve some of the stress on me and give him the opportunity to spend time with them. I don't see me taking a trip down there for awhile and to be honest there isn't alot of people that I want to see there.
I am still thinking but, Ex if you are reading this you might see what can be worked out to keep them from the mid-July to mid-August!
