Bad enough I didn't sleep much last night (nightmares suck) but my hundred and seven pound furry alarm clock went off waaaaaay too early, at 3:45 this morning. I love the dog to death, but this is getting ridiculous. I changed and walked all three dogs at four in the morning. Joy.
Since I was wide awake, I figured I'd just putter online, but apparently my ISP still hasn't figured out why the DSL isn't working at the house. And the cable was out too (same provider), so I couldn't even watch the news. Oh, and I am out of coffee at the house...
Then there was the argument with my wife when I woke her at six because she wouldn't turn off her alarm clock. She had a depressive fit a couple nights ago that has lingered, and she woke in a most foul mood today. Didn't help matters when I simply walked away in the middle of it all I suppose, but just then I didn't give a damn. I was just too sleepy, cranky, and tired (of everything) to care.
Then I got to the office early to get some work done only to find that the database had crashed. Again. This has been a constant feature at work for the past few weeks, taking time away from my already over full schedule to deal with this crap. And tech support is three hours behind me, so they can't get to it until we're already into the work day. I've been running consistancy checks and repaired one file, but it still doesn't explain why the #$%^ing thing keeps crashing.
Among other things on my mind at work is the impending termination of my other estimator/draftsman. It was supposed to happen at the end of last week, but because my supervisor is going on vacation later this month and won't be able to support me, management has decided to postpone the inevitable. But in the meantime, my estimator is being a royal pain in the arse. His attitude and performance suck, and he just doesn't give a damn any more. I agree he should be terminated, even if it means my workload will increase. I can't afford to redo or fix everything he turns in as it is...
I'm still looking for a place to live, and the upcoming refinancing of the house will remove my name from the property all together so it cannot be held against me when I divorce. I want so badly to simply walk out, but that would only provoke my wife to try and drain me for everything I've got and then some. If my name isn't on anything, she can't take it or force me to pay for it. Just have to get through all of it with my sanity and dignity intact. And my dignity isn't even all that important anymore...
This is all starting to take its toll on me. Just needed to vent and rant while I ran diagnostics on the database. Feel free to ignore the man behind the curtain. He's probably too tired to notice right now anyway...
