so..i havent told anyone this..but its starting to like burn on the inside and i have to get it out.. i figure if i can type it without crying..then ill be okay..right?..okay..so here it goes.. i went back home, back to the place i have missed so much..i usually go back every year. so i went back an saw my bestfriend, an her bf who she practically lives with an his roomate who i had a blind date with the year before. * he never called after it*- but we all go to dinner, an he pays, so thats kids sweet right? an we just decide to forget the past because he says he called when he didnt. but o well..
so we go to the ABC store an get some drink stuff.. and so we go home, an me an the bff make just rum an juice no big deal. so were all just watching tv hanging out, well i drink most of the drink my "date" finishes the rest an goes to make me another with the bff...well i dont drink much if i never said that before..i really dont! i swear i dont. so he comes back an im like, it taste funny.. an hes like no, just drink it but since my bff was with him, i should trust them right? bc she'd tell me! so i drink most of that an then me an the bff do a shot. so then im starting to feel it, somethings not right.
me an the date start making out. and then we end up going a little farther. NOW im not a slut or a whore, ive only been with one man, which was my ex of 2 years. SO- we did NOT have sex, but it was interesting, because were in his room, an he tells me he added more everclear to my drink! EVERCLEAR!!!!120proof!
so it didnt hit me until the next day that he spiked me drink! an TOLD ME! an i asked the bff and shes like Oh yea i saw him! thats not okay in my book! i trusted her. and i never ever ever ever ever food around and i do, an thats what happens. because if i wouldnt have had that drink i probally wouldnt have gone as far as i did.
i dont know what to really think about all of it. its just been bothering me. i had to get it out. so there it is.
confused, an sad. me
