Having your first sexual experience being with your father before you are old enough to even know what is happening
Praying every night to die
Hating yourself so much that you want to hurt, you need to hurt, and you wish to hurt
Thinking that it is normal for someone to hold you down and rape you
Being so scared that your child will be molested or raped that you do not want her out of your sight
Seeing every man and wondering if he is a rapist or child molester
Making love to your husband, but instead of enjoying it like a loving couple should, you dread it because you are so scared of having flashbacks of being raped
Being so scared to cry that even when you are hurting so bad, you cannot shed one single tear
Being so good at 'blocking out' the pain, that in order to feel alive you have to put a blade to your skin, feel pain and see the blood, starve yourself, stick your fingers down your throat - and sometimes that is not even enough
Knowing that the only thing anyone ever wanted out of you since you were just a little girl was sex
Never having anyone to protect you
The page you were looking for no longer exists
I'mNotHungry posted on Jun 05, 2008
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hinana said on Jun 05, 2008....
((hugs)) im so sorry -
Mamie said on Jun 05, 2008....
no sweetie pie, I cannot imagine that...Imagine there's no heaven
It's easy if you try
No hell below us
Above us only sky
Imagine all the people
Living for today...
Imagine there's no countries
It isn't hard to do
Nothing to kill or die for
And no religion too
Imagine all the people
Living life in peace...
You may say I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
I hope someday you'll join us
And the world will be as one
Imagine no possessions
I wonder if you can
No need for greed or hunger
A brotherhood of man
Imagine all the people
Sharing all the world...
You may say I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
I hope someday you'll join us
And the world will live as oneimagine that, k?.... -
Fallyn said on Jun 05, 2008....
*VERY big hugs* i can parts, and can't parts. and the parts i can...wasn't until i was older. I can't imagine feeling that way as a child.
i don't think you are wrong for trying to protect your daughter. i'd be the same way.
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quietone said on Jun 06, 2008....
sweet hungry, no, I can't imagine....... {{{hugs}}}
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barneym45 said on Jun 06, 2008....
I can't even to begin to imagine the pain.
I am sorry for it though.
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wombat said on Jun 06, 2008....
Shedding a tear for you here....and some of that I can imagine. I can only say I understand and I care.{{{{{{{and send one of my hugs}}}}}}wombat -
vacantmind said on Jun 11, 2008....
yes, I can imagine. I don't like to though and I don't want that to be what fills my head these days.
Can you imagine having the power to control your own life? The ability to protect yourself and your daughter without fear being the focus? Can you imagine the woman your daughter will become because she has someone to shield her from people like that?
Be proud of where you are today! Be proud of the strength it took to survive that abuse.
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