• gingersoul said on Jun 01, 2008....

  Dream........i love perusing at Barnes and Nobles as well......give me a book and a comfy chair and i can stay there for hours......:-)
  
  Next time if you feel so lonely....come back here and do comment...no matter how many comments you see in one  post...do it...you never know the people that will read your words and how many connections you might start..
  
  I know it because i met here some of the most important person in my life....
  It can happen to you too......:-)

• bloggerport12 said on Jun 02, 2008....

  you are not alone in feeling lonely
  i am too..
  people who see me are actualy shocked to come to know i am so lonely. iam a twenty one year old girl who is conidered to be "pretty, sweet and adorable"
  still i feel so lonely
  i do have friends..a few good ones
  but i feel especially left out when they hang out with their boyfriends
  i am alone sitting away from them
  
  

• dreamloser said on Jun 02, 2008....

  i agree, most of my friends have boyfriends an just want to hang out with them. i was actually hanging out with a girl friend an her guy called an she ditched me..i know i am considered a nice sweet funny cute girl who should not have to be lonely; exspecially when i have 30 sorority sisters huh? but they are all so perfect. an then theres me. even in a room of them i still feel like the odd one out.
   
  thank you for responding bloggersport12

• bloggerport12 said on Jun 05, 2008....

  i hate being left out and now its just killing me from the inside.its just that it kills you when the same thing keeps repeating.i appear really happy from the outside but i am so depressed from within. i have never told this to any one and i am sure my friiends will be shocked if they read this. all this makes me wonder why am i even considered to be 'pretty, sweet, and hot'? it isnt really helping, is it?

• dreamloser said on Jun 05, 2008....

  i know exactly how you feel!!! an yea if my friends read my blogs im sure theyd think the same but, i feel like that too. i fake a smile so much when on the inside i feel like im dying an crying for attention. just someone to include me. not leave me out! want to chat with someone about books an stuff other than boys! we are in college! i know how you feel bloggersport- i really really do kow how you feel. please keep writing me!

• bloggerport12 said on Jun 06, 2008....

  oh yea we will, but first i have to let some secrets out.i have not told any one about what has been happening since the last few years and its as though its a big load on my back for quite some time.
  Here's the deal:few years ago in high school, i fell for this guy who in turn fell for a close friend of mine. she was oblivious to this and they started dating. i was devastated but i did not say anything to anyone, i just kept to my self. then i started dating this other guy, (who i dint really like), to just get over him. i acted very cold n stuff so we broke up n i remained depressed.
  then after joining college, the same thing happened to me.a guy who i really liked fell for another close friend of mine, although they did not date.
  believe it or not but the same thing happened last year with the same friend again. the fact that this has happened over three times has depressed me to no limit.
  its just that whenever i see other people so happy in love and shit it depresses me. and its not that people do not like me, its just that the person who i like never likes me back! and still people call be one of the cutest girls, i dont know why?
  and now who ever i fall for, i am not sure if i truely like them or its just because of my lonliness
  P.S:this is the first time i am blogging so i have no clue how to use soulcast and i am at home presently so, my replies may not be too spontanious because of people being around me!

• dreamloser said on Jun 06, 2008....

  well i have to say ive had that happen, the exact same thing thats happened to you. the guys i ususally like dont like me back an they end up liking my friends. it happened last semester really, i met this guy really radomly at a party etc and by the time i got home he had facebooked me wanting to add me as a friend, an asked to hang out! i was so excited because he was cute and i had been so lonely an though finally! he chose me! yea well after a month of hanging out, he starting screwing on of my closest friends behind  my back..it was really upsetting to the point all i did was cry. and even then she still doesnt know that i know what she did to me. she even told people that she didnt want to talk to me about liking him she just wanted to do it behind my back an see what would happen.
   
  when i see people in love- i just want to cry. because i want that so bad- i want to fall in love, an be happy, and do the cutsey coupley things! i want it so bad that ive wondered if it will ever happen, what if it doesnt? i dont want to be alone forever. but i keep trying to tell myself there is someone for everyone!! and just hope that i find my one soon.
   
  ive never really blogged before on here either, so were both knew to this, so dont worry. and i understand i was home last week. but i guess were both just waiting on the one guy that will like us for us an not our friends.
   
  have you gone to like campus counseling? i had to last year bc my old roomate went through a lot, but it ended up realy helping just get my problems out. an we talked about dating a lot! it was really cool.

• bloggerport12 said on Jun 06, 2008....

  oh my its really sad when close friends do this, i mean where is all the trust gone? where are all the values gone? why is it that flings are more valued than long time friendship? this really sickens me to no limit. sometimes i feel i am the only one who values friends over cheating guys, and believes in love. but i am scared my belief in true love is diminishing cause there doesnt seem to be anyone there for me! and where i live, we never go out on dates or anything, i mean it would be inappropriate to go out with any guy you just meet randomly! i mean its ok to go out but not just go on dates with a new person every day. people are conservative here, although my college (since it mainly caters to 'international students') is filled with many people like you may find in yours; like the get-stoned-hook up-and-forget-about-it-the-next-day punks. i assume you are in the US and so there are college counsellers etc on campus. well where i live there arent any college counsellers or anything. if there were i would have definately gone there, but since there arent, i have to resolve to blogging cause i cannot really talk to anyone else about it. i just feel so much better telling someone everything that i wouldnt have dreamt of even leeting it slip by mistake if i am drunk!

• dreamloser said on Jun 12, 2008....

  blogger- i know how you feel...i honestly do. how are you? its been a few days?

• bloggerport12 said on Jun 14, 2008....

  i am much better..coping with things..i just had to let that out, so i am good now, well how are you?

• dreamloser said on Jun 14, 2008....

  i am alright- :) read my latest blog? so im a lot better than i was.

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