I am so devastated by my recent break up I can barely function.  I haven't eaten in three days, cannot stop crying, and have never felt so helpless, alone broken and even suicidal.  The thing is, I was the one who initiated the break up in the first place.  My girlfriend was such a wonderful person, but I am pretty sure she was bi polar and was so offended by my suggestion that she see a therapist for her family and job issues that she grew to resent me.   We lived together and she couldn't give me any alone time whatsoever.  I felt kind of smothered and I never knew what kind of mood she was going to be in.  I chose to end things, and now I regret it more than anything I have ever done.  She decided to stop all contact with me and move out of state.  All within a two week span.  I feel such regret and realized now how much I really truly love her and how I want to be with her for the rest of my life.  I don't know why I have had such a drastic change of feelings, but She said it is too late.   Has anyone out there gone through anything similar?  a break up that has literally made every part of your life uncomfortable?  I don't want to eat, go to work, or anything for that matter.  I don't feel comfortable in my own skin anymore and don't even know what I want out of life anymore.  I'm almost 30 and was so sure when I meet this woman that she was the one.