I'm going away for a few days so I won't be around till late next week probably. I have to go see my fam. I'm dreading it, but oh freakin' well. It's gotta be done once in a while and I haven't been there in over a year. They don't know yet that I am coming. I don't want them to pack up and leave the country or something.
I'm driving and it will take me two days each way to drive. I will spend a day just wandering around, then a day visiting them and then head back. Maybe I should just drive by and wave! That's about all it's going to amount to anyway. It will be Hello, then listen to my mother complain about my changing my last name for about ten minutes and then Bye.
Last time I was there her main complaint was that I chose to accept a fellowship so far away when I could have tried to get closer to home. I was thinking the whole time, "What would be the point?"
The time before that was right after I had the courts declare me emancipated. That was a real trip and a half. I had to do it though because they refused to provide financial information to the college. Yeah I was there on a full ride, but they still try to recover as much from federal and state programs as they can. In order to do that I needed my parents tax shit. So I filed for emancipation. It felt good, but real freakin strange. All of a sudden I didn't legally have parents any more. Weird.
The last time I had seen them before that was when I left for college at age 16.
So In the last six years I have spent a total of maybe an hour with my fam. Kinda sucks. But it was a break I really needed in order to get my own shit together. I'm doing so freakin' much better now than I was then.
Anyway, if you don't see me around, that's the reason. I haven't just dropped off the planet or anything. One never knows though.
Love nature and stay cool!
