On December 26, 2007, my sister had applied with SMART BROADBAND for an internet connection at home. This, I thought was her decision to minimize my expenses at the internet café in our hometown. In a matter of two days, 3 technicians came to our house to install the connection. We were happy then that the long cherished dream came true.
This has become a telltale of my struggle to access the use of computer for the purpose of looking for livelihood in the internet.
It is about the painstaking desire to surf the internet to look for a better work-from-home job in the internet. I have been hopping from website links to website links. There were some who offered good opportunities to get money in online marketing of buying and selling products/goods/items but to no avail because I do not have the dollar currency to pay for the fees to set up a URL/personal website in order that I could promote some products. So much so to gain points and locked in my position in the executive level in order to derive commissions from the new comers or down liners.
Personally, I know my own capacity to pay for the fees for I am not earning income or unemployed. In reality, I could not join the marketing business due to my inability to obtain pay pal/credit cards which would facilitate selling and buying transactions. So, the alternative steps I took were to look for other jobs that do not demand any of the aforementioned requirements.
The tedious work I always do with the computer-internet at home is to hit my target: to earn money for about US $8,000 dollars. This is in relation to my care job application for UK with Affinity Training and Kirsten Student Development, Inc., Cebu, Philippines. I am supposed to catch up the promo period and free plain ticket to UK last April 17, 2008, but I have no power to get to it with ease. Due to my earnest desire to work as a caregiver, I have the conviction to raise money through online money-making jobs. Almost always I got frustrated, because I see that I have not started earning dollars yet. Besides that, I am getting frustrated with my own family as they are getting cold with my plan for work abroad. As I see, my own sister is not showing interest in saving money for my application.
As I spend more time in the internet-computer, my sister often nagged at me. She told me about the rising electric bills each month. The more painful is that I am refrained from using it to prevent breakdown that would demand expenses for repair. Though, I gave her an explanation that I did it so that I could become self-sufficient and would no longer ask from them payment for my job application. The inhibition gave me disappointments and heartaches. I often feel the pain in my chest due to this high optimism and spirit to obtain a job.
