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I don't know what to do. I've been to the doctors a few times since having my very first chemo treatment last week. I haven't been able to eat since then... not just because I don't want to (which was the case at first), but because I can't stomach it. I do try and eat, but it always upsets my stomach and comes right back up. I can't keep anything down... not even the anti-nausea pills.
 
I'm 23 years old, and as of this mornings doctor check-up... I weigh... drumroll please... 95 lbs! Yes, you heard me right... 95 lbs (or just over 43 kg)
 
I feel so weak, so tired, so unhealthy. I look at myself in the mirror and am disgusted. I bruise really easily and I'm scared that if I lift something, I might break.
 
I'm not doing this on purpose. I can assure you of that. I just can't get anything to stay down and it's really starting to get bad. I've gotten to the point where I don't even feel hungry anymore.
 
The doctors did put me on IV to pump some nutrients into my body... and I have a home nurse coming each day to give me a shot of anti-nausea medication. But for now, I was told to keep trying with the food. I'm sorry, but shouldn't they be doing more for me? I mean... we NEED food and water to live, and I can't seem to digest either. Like HELLO doc, HELP ME! Funny thing is... they told me this is all quite normal. And I've had more than one opinion too. I just wish there was more I could do...
 
It's been quite the battle so far, and I seem to be losing... in more ways then one!
 
Any suggestions?


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  • Fallyn said on May 27, 2008....
    oh sweetie. *HUGE hugs* i hope so hope it gets better soon!


  • secretlife said on May 27, 2008....
    sunshine, there are several drugs now for anti-nausea related to chemo-
    my sister actually takes hers in a pill form, not IV.  i don't know if that's an option for you, or if there's another drug your doctor might recommend.
     
    i do know that you have to speak up loudly-  and let the doctor and his nurses know what your issues are.  i know it's really really hard to do this, especially when you aren't feeling well, but you have to be pushy.  it's just the way things work. 
     
    there are high calorie drinks like ensure that are on the market and you can get in the supermarket that you can use as meal replacement and are high in both nutrients and calories....has anyone mentioned these to you? 
     
     
  • vacantmind said on May 27, 2008....
    This is fairly common. I had the same issue off and on through my treatments. Make everything count. Instead of drinking water...drink apple juice. You don't have to worry about your calorie intake. One of the things I did was I kept a bowl of fresh fruit next to me. All bite size....strawberries, blueberries, grapes, raspberries, etc. I would eat one every hour I was awake. If I kept it down I might eat more but, if I couldn't handle it I didn't.
    Just take your time eating. There is no reason for you sit and eat a large meal. Take a small bites throughout the day until your stomach can handle a larger amount!
  • brit said on May 27, 2008....
    Try and keep your spirits up girlfriend! :-) Vacant's suggestion sounds
    really good, I'd try that. Sorry things are so challenging right now
    :-(  Watch some funny movies and tv shows because I think you
    could use some laughter.

    Best wishes,
    Brit
  • Sunshine_Mariah said on May 28, 2008....

    Fallyn - Thanks *hugs* So do I!

    Secret - I tried the pills but they weren't working/staying down... so now I am getting them through IV. The doctors and nurses do know what's going on, but at this point in time, they want me to keep trying on my own first. I haven't tried any shakes or drinks... I'm having a hard enough time getting a piece of toast or some crackers, a glass of juice or water to stay down. Thanks for the suggestion though. I may give them a try when I am able to start keeping things down.

    Vacant - I tried the fruit, unfortunately it didn't settle in my stomach either. Thanks for the support!

    Brit - Thank you! :-) And I took your advice on the funny movies/ tv... it seems to be passing by some time.

  • FutureGoddess said on May 28, 2008....

    Have you thought about looking into Medical Marijuana?  I don't know where you live or the legalities of this option (if that matters to you), but I understand it is very effective as an anti-nausal/hunger inducer. 

  • vacantmind said on May 28, 2008....
    I am sorry this is being so rough for you. Just keep talking to the doctor's and nurse's. Let them know how you feel. The first couple of treatment's are usually the worse for the stomach. I hope that remains true in your case.
  • Lucytorial said on May 28, 2008....
    Hey sunshine, when David was going through his chemo he went from a healthy 78 kilo's down to a scary 48 kilos.... but your docs right, you have to try to eat even though it does make you feel off.

    I spent about a month trying foods he could eat, found a few that stayed down and a few that didn't come out looking like the same as it went in.

    Only thing I can suggest is ask your doc for some nutrient shakes,  futuregodess' suggestion is spot on... sorry it is, it worked better than all of the drugs he took and his doc said take it whenever you need to.

    It also takes the edge off the chemo too, mentally and emotionally!

    Chemo is destroying all of your rapidly dividing cells, this means, mouth, tongue, throat, gut, intestines etc etc makes it really hard to eat and taste and keep down food, try the mush method with lots of heavy flavours things you like that taste good but aren't hard to digest a little at a time.  Soups are great, I'd stay away from anything that is high in fibre and also high in protein.

    I hope you feel better soon but I know what its like, hugs honey and hang in there.

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