Really what is everything
what is nothing
as i stand in this parking lot
hugging an old man with cancer
bringing his cart back
because chemo took it's toll
i don't even know this being
but deep in
deep out
my soul beseeches you lord
help me carry the sadness
that chains itself
reminding me
that loving is not easy
it is not a game
you either love wholly
or you pretend-

by haod 5-24-08