• secretlife said on May 20, 2008....

  is there a friend or two that you know that maybe you all could go in on a place together?  share rent?
  that makes things easier....
  when you leave home, you won't be leaving forever queenie.  you can still visit whenever you feel homesick. 
  try not to worry so much what everything thinks or might think about your decisions.  the main thing is that you feel sure of the right thing to do for you- that you have faith in yourself.

• PAPERBACKWRITER said on May 21, 2008....

  
  
  ! know you are strong Queenie.
  
  I have felt it since we met here in SC. 
  
  I have derived from your strength in the times I needed it.
  
  I cannot say anything concrete right now re:steps you could do, only that I believe in you.
  
  ((((((((((((((yakap)))))))))))))))))
  
  ate papel
  
  
  

• pickersplock said on May 21, 2008....

  I know you're on the right track! :)

• queenparanoia said on May 21, 2008....

  secret: well i have a friend i could stay with. the problem is their apartment is too small.... you know thinking what other's think is really hard to get rid. but i'm trying.... =)

  paper: thanks ate papel... {{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{yakap}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

  pickers: i hope so pickers...

   

• skald said on May 21, 2008....

  Queen you can't force your self to grow up but you are growing up very nicely. Be glad for the close family ties. I think you are. We here in Iceland have them too. 

• queenparanoia said on May 21, 2008....

  skald: thanks skald. it's hard if i went on my own because the close family ties. but i hope that they will understand...

• silverwhisper said on May 22, 2008....

  sis, won't you need a job first? i don't know about there, but here to get an apartment you usually need to have 2 months worth of rent before getting an apartment.
  
  ed

• queenparanoia said on May 22, 2008....

  silver: yes i would need a job first....

• silverwhisper said on May 22, 2008....

  so start talking with everyone you know about a specific job, or at least strengths you have. your family is making you crazy, i know, but never understimate the value of your family knowing a lot of people.
  
  ed

• queenparanoia said on May 22, 2008....

  silver: actually i'm asking help from our fellow pinay soulcaster dazed and confuse!!! and yes ive been looking for a job. i dont know how my family woul react but i dont care what they think anymore. i'm doing this for me!!!

• skald said on May 22, 2008....

  Queen. They will understand because they love you. They might not understand in the beginning but they will. They will come to understand that you are still close to them. 

• queenparanoia said on May 22, 2008....

  skald: i think they will... thanks for the support dear skald... =)

• silverwhisper said on May 23, 2008....

  sis, ask family, too: they know a lot of very different people than dazed does, i would think.
  
  ed

• queenparanoia said on May 23, 2008....

  silver: i will.

• gran1de7 said on May 24, 2008....

  silverwhisper said 2 days ago....

  sis, won't you need a job first? i don't know about there, but here to get an apartment you usually need to have 2 months worth of rent before getting an apartment.
  
  ed
  +
  to queenparanoia: can you teach English online? Does your accent sound like American? Mine is not, still I got accepted because I tried to speak fluent English... though I know I'm not that fluent. I'm currently teaching a Korean online; only 1 student for now because I don't want too many students so that it won't interfere with my studies. Anyway, the payment is P100 per hour; I teach online for two hours every Saturday and Sunday. If you are interested, I'll send you the email of the employer... anyway, the website is in Korean, but you can check it out:
  
  http://explorenglish.com/
  
  +
  to silverwhisper: Apparently, it is difficult to live in a country like Philippines. Things here are somewhat expensive. The cheapest apartment might cost around P1000 per month; in USA dollar conversion, it is more or less $20. And the minimum wage is P300 plus (so, that's more or less $6) for 8 hours of working (I knew, because I once worked as a sales assistant for a retail store). Unlike in developed countries like USA, I think a person can be paid per hour, with $7 as minimum wage (so, that's less P300)... three more hours, and the Philippine apartment can already be paid... but that's only in a person's dreams...
  Though we also have per-hour payment, I think it is less than P100 (i.e. more or less $2).
  
  My point here is that... it is impossible to dream of having your own apartment here in the Philippines, especially if a person does not have a high-paying job like call center agents... This can only happen to first-world countries... unless a person believes in the motto: "If there's a will, there's a way..." But that's too much drama.
  
  So, to queenparanoia, if you are looking for an apartment (I think the expensive one is around P6000? I don't know, it could be more), you should look for four or five roommates.
  

• queenparanoia said on May 25, 2008....

  gran: actually i'm finding a job in the call center. ( i quit school) and dont worry i wont live alone. i have a friend who is willing to share a room with. but in fairness mahinap ako sa grammar kaya i dont know if i could teach koreans some english. pero thank you ha. natouch naman ako. youre so thoughful to offer help... =) 

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