Hey soulcast..i know i haven't blogged in a while..well its because my mom got a heart attack and it was bad. Shes in a coma..and after those first 3 days they told us to expect the worst..but she pulled through and its been 2 weeks..but still shes in this state. im still sort of in shock mode, i can't really grasp whats happennig i just can't seem to understand that she could really leave us..and i clearly remember my things i told her we had another one of arguments and i told her how i was dying to leave "this" house..sort of ironic.
i feel like the worst person in the world right now. I wish i could take back what i said, or atleast said something else.. i feel useless.
My aunt asked me if we should incase prepare for a funeral and the costs..i can't believe shes asking me to think about this now i mean fuck shes still alive
im really tired anyways i haven't slept much. im really numb right now i feel that all this isn't really happening. i wonder if its just horrible dream and i would wake up im praying its a dream
