People said that 1st love never died. I believe it's true. But i read a quote that 2nd love maybe better than the 1st, coz we already learn from the past. So, shortly, we(hopefully) won't make the same mistake.

I feel a lot of difference from my past relationship and my present. My 1st love is full of dreams, emotions, anger and tears. well, yeah, u can say it was full of drama. I was 15 at that time, he was my senior and he's so cute and..yadayada yada..We had an up and down relationship for 5 years 1 month 13 days.

My 2nd love(which is my present love) is more stable. He is my classmates. we were friend. Not a best friends, but close enough. I don't know what changed me. Is it ages (i'm 21 right now), experience..I don't know. What i know is right now, I feel more secure with my self and my partner. I'm more able to control my emotion. The emotion that i feel now is not huge like the 1st one, but it is more warm and comfortable. Maybe i sounds silly, but sometimes i imagine him like a big blanket. Blanket that can always make my heart feel safe and warm. Hmm, write about him make me miss him... ;p

I don't know the future. But i know i will fight for me and him,as hard as i can. I hope he will too. I feel thankful for my 1st relationship.It already teached me a lot of things. Well if my 2nd love also have to be over(oh God please don't...) i also will thankful for it. Coz i know i will learn from it to make my 3rd love succeed(or maybe 4th, 5th.. xp )