It makes me feel terrible that there are those oh well most.. .who just stopped caring. They are there when there is a storm in yourlife. They outpour you with love and encouraging words.
But when life has been good to you and what makes you smile doesnt seem to make them smile they just stop caring.
When that happens it makes you feel like you dont belong enymore. That you are not interested enough for them anymore.
They shrug their shoulders and passes their eyes on you and never notices you.
With a situation like that, it makes me lose interest too. I dont know why, I'd like to care too, I do care.
Its just that... you feel unconnected, distant, neglected.
I end up shying away. Shielding myself from disappointment. From saddness.
I may be alone, no one may care, no one may understand why such small things make me happy but I am happy. I am fulfilled...
I may be alone but I am not lonely anymore. I may be crazy to others, they look at me and say.. there goes the girl with no direction in life... But i am not lost anymore.
How could i lose directione when i dont feel lost? When I feel so much in control?
I dont want my happiness be pulled down to the gutters by seeing how little are those who care... I may decide to leave them and go ahead and skip and smile and say...
bye bye... I am okay... even without those who I thought would care...
Because what is important is that... I am now Happy.
