PAPERBACKWRITER posted on May 05, 2008
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Dearest Friends,
I apologize for not keeping you updated.
I apologize for not replying to the comments of my last two blogs. I am always grateful for your support. I have said it before, I will come back to posts no matter how late for I appreciate every time you give me - I beg your indulgence.
I am trying hard to stay afloat and not sink in a black hole again. It´s hard but I am trying.
I was so tempted to delete my blogs and just disappear from SoulCast. I can´t explain how I am feeling. I am trying to overcome.
I can´t write further, I am sorry. I just wanted to leave a note as haphazard as it is. . .it makes me feel a bit better. . .I hate making people worry, or wonder. . .but I am consistenly giving up on perfectionism if it means I will keep my friendship intact.
I treasure my friendship here in SoulCast, and I did not want to send mixed signals. . .I hate mixed signals - hate hate hate them!
I am not sure when I will be posting again. . .perhaps this would even help and tomorrow will be better. . .but now I feel I am paralyzed. . .it is agony. . .I hate it. :(
I am reading (solace!) . Commenting is hard though, when you can´t concentrate. Please bear with me if I don´t show my face to your blogs . . . I am a silent follower. . .
. . . I will try my best not to lose myself again, and disappear into nothingness of lurking . . . not in SC not in life.
Thank you for reading. Thank you for understanding.
Yours in friendship,
paper
Comments
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Never_Mind_The_Quality said on May 05, 2008....
My Paper,
You just traveled and came home with three happy children.
That can take alot out of you. You are tired. Sleep a peacefull sleep.
Dream only of sweet things. Wake up refreshed and....
Do it all over again. Rest my Paper! Rest!
I wish you a sweet night my Sweet.
Your ~ Q.
{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}
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diabolicdame said on May 05, 2008....
((((hug)))) Hang in there paper..
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Twylarants said on May 05, 2008....
Paper~ all everyone here cares about is your health and peace of mind. We don't care if you're posting or commenting or just trying to gain some ground.
You do what you need to do. We'll be here when you come back.
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uniquely-ironic said on May 05, 2008....
Don't you worry too much about us! I know that just a peep out of you now and then will be more than fine. I think it's important for you to focus on finding a way to feel better. -
moonriver said on May 05, 2008....
paper -- Whatever happens, my friend, don't disappear from us. Please. You are needed here. ASAP. I'm having chamomile tea, crackers and egg tortilla for breakfast. Want some? Sort of pre-midnight snack for you before going to bed... ((hugs))
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skald said on May 05, 2008....
Paper (((((((((((((((Hugs))))))))))))))))) you sound so down. I am sorry to hear this. I am still glad that you did not delete your blogs here. Please come back when you feel better. I am so sorry to know you feel like this. -
pickersplock said on May 05, 2008....
Hey you, I think you need this;
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secretlife said on May 05, 2008....
you know how i feel about sleep....sleep little one. sugar plum dreams for you....and when you wake a new day will be waiting. -
wombat said on May 05, 2008....
I am of the mind that SC is the one place that you can be who you really are--meaning you can come back when you feel like it to say whatever you want, whenever you feel like it, and that is why this place is so good for all of us.You don't need to apologize for "not being around."I am thinking that is the one thing we don't need to worry about here.Just take care of you, and as you are doing that, we are all doing the best we can also----and we shall meet again here when we are both (all, and any) up to it.This is the good place.{{{{{hugs}}}}}wombat -
evil_twin said on May 05, 2008....
Take care of yourself, Paper. If you need a break, that's certainly fine. We'll all still be here. But just don't disappear forever. We'll miss you. But you concentrate on yourself and getting well again. I hope you're feeling a little better soon though. It's amazing how quickly it can change sometimes...
-Kyle
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CreativeWoman said on May 05, 2008....
Paper,
Write as you need to on your blog. Don't worry about answering each comment if you can't. We'll understand and you'll still get the support you need. You do have friends here.
I hope you get the rest and peace that you need.
CW
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crybabylu said on May 05, 2008....
You owe us nothing! I personally like to read your blogs whether you are up or down, because I care about you, but my caring doesn't obligate you at all. When you feel like blogging and/or commenting, I will be here. Love you bunches!... dee -
queenparanoia said on May 05, 2008....
ate pahinga ka muna... taps balik ka dito... i miss you ate paper... and dont know you know you can count on me... ignore negative people... concentrate the positive in soulcast... -
polarheart said on May 05, 2008....
Paperbaby, please dont worry about a thing, coz every little thing's gonna be alright. I dedicate this song to you:
I will be here with the rest of the clan whenever you need us!! I think the world of you and pray that you will receive true and pure peace.Much love,
Polar
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MissMimi said on May 05, 2008....
Paper, the important thing is for you to concentrate on YOU. We'll all be here when you feel stronger. Secret's so right about sleep. Please rest and take care of yourself.
I'm sending some emotional strength across the ocean to you, Paper. {{{{{{{{{{{{{{hugs}}}}}}}}}}}}}}
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polarheart said on May 05, 2008....
Paper, you have my email address, should you ever need me!((((((((((hugs))))))))))))Polar -
GrapeKoolaid said on May 06, 2008....
I'm just going to echo everyone else here and say that I'm here should you need me.
What meager abilities I possess are at your complete disposal.
You know this already...
You don't need to drop me a note or anything. Just post a comment somewhere where I can see it, to let me know that you're doing alright.
In the meantime, I will send happy thoughts along your way. (think flowers!)
Grape. :)
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quietone said on May 06, 2008....
{{{{{{{{hugs}}}}}}} paper, we will be right here for you. Try your best to hang on because this too shall pass ~ You are in my thougths and prayers.
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