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I had a couple of blog posts asking all of you to pray for my dear friend who had been in a car accident in February, and who - during recovery - it was discovered had lukemia. 
 
Many of you know MyHeartAches, who bloged here at SoulCast.  MyHeartAches was that real life friend I had asked prayers for.
 
G died this morning.  A mutual friend of ours informed me today that her passing was peaceful.  Her blood pressure continued to drop all night, her heart rate slowed, and her body was just too weak to fight anymore. 
 
G was such a wonderful person.  She had endured more heartache than any one person should ever have to bear.  Yet, she still carried love deeply within her.  She loved to have a good time, and her sense of humor was phenomenal.  She was always there for me, no matter what she was going through.
 
Two nights ago she sent me this poem . . .
 

If I die tonight
Hold onto these last words
But don't let them bring you down
I am saying them to you
To help you through
When I am gone

If I die tonight
I'd want you to know
How much you've meant to me
You have always been my rock
My source of strength, through everything
I wouldn't have made it this far without you

If I die tonight
I'd want you all to know that I am very thankful
That I got the chance to be a part of your life
You have been such a wonderful part of my life

If I die tonight
I hope you’ll  live your life to the fullest
Knowing that I couldn't in my life
So please do it for me

If I die tonight
Please know that I will be in a better place
And know that wherever that is I am happy

and surrounded by loved ones
And please remember I'll always love you
Because love is the one thing that will never really die.

 

G, I love you, and I'll miss you terribly.  I believe that you are now with your babies, and your beloved K.  

I'll treasure your friendship always.  You made a *REAL* difference in my life.

~Grace~

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G, at home between times in the hospital.  Her beautiful soul shows in her smile, doesn't it? =)


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  • evil_twin said on May 03, 2008....
    That's so sad :-( I'm sorry. That was a really beautiful poem she sent you though. I'm just glad she's at peace now and not suffering anymore. But I'm very sorry for the loss of your friend.

    -Kyle
  • Lucytorial said on May 03, 2008....
    Ohh Grace..... there are tears in my eyes for the loss, your loss of a friend and dear person.

    Thank you for posting her poem, her immortality doesn't just lie in the fact that she was loved and will be remembered but now her poem too sits in these pages to remind us all to live our lives to the fullest.

    my heartfelt sympathies Grace... i don't know what else to say, but my throat hurts.
  • Mamie said on May 03, 2008....
    Grace, yes, myheart went thru so much in these past months and I am so sorry to hear this news. I am trying to remember that she is with her boys...and that they are finally together in a way that they never could be here. I am glad that her suffering has come to an end and that she can rest in eternal peace knowing that she lived her life surrounded by friends like you, that is truly a treasure. Remembering with you....m
  • I'mNotHungry said on May 03, 2008....

    Grace, I sit here reading and rereading your post and your friend's poem and as tears are streaming down my face,  I can find no words to comfort you in your grief.  There are no words to make you feel better, there is nothing to say.
    So, instead, I am with you (holding you) in your grief, sitting with you in this time of sorrow. 

    Please take care, H.

  • Zayda said on May 03, 2008....
    Grace: I've read this post over and over, and simply cannot find the words for what is in my heart right now.


    I'm terribly sorry to hear for your loss. Thank you for sharing MyHeartAches beautiful poem with us.


    I hope that you find strength in her words and her love for you.
  • MindfulOne said on May 04, 2008....
    I'm sorry for the loss of your friend.  Peace and comfort to all who loved her.
  • MissMimi said on May 04, 2008....
    This is a terrible shock.  I just don't know what to say.  I'm so sorry, Grace.  I'll keep you in my thoughts.
  • crybabylu said on May 04, 2008....
    I think this is an awful loss.for all of us.  She couldn't get a break. Seems no matter where she turned or looked, the pain was just too great. Worse than the lukemia, she never got over the grief of losing her babies, and I don't know how anyone gets past that, least someone who was as ill as she. It is comforting to know that she is now in the arms of Jesus, and her babies are there too, and I think if we could close our eyes and meditate on this, we might just be fortunate to see that reunion going on up there right now.  In my mindseys, I believe I see her. I tell you the truth, I believe I see her, and she is smiling,---smiling big with joy.  Thank you for being there for her, Grace. You can take comfort in knowing, that no matter what, you were there.......Love and prayers, dee.
  • rustydiamond said on May 04, 2008....

    dee just dragged me in here to read this, and it's almost too much to bear.  All of us here have tears rolling down our faces, because Lukemia is what claimed the life of my wife not too long ago. 

    she was plagued with heart trouble ( complication of her diabes ) for a couple of years before she died, and we didn't know about the Lukemia but for months before her passing. I haven't been following this poor girl's story, but I guess there is comfort,  that she is no longer suffering.  That is the only comfort I have in losing my wife.

  • polarheart said on May 04, 2008....

    GG, I am so terribly sorry to hear this.  May peace come in time.

    Much love and warm embraces

    Polar

  • GracefullyGrowing said on May 04, 2008....
    I'm kind of lost between a vicodin stupor (from my surgery on Friday) and grief, so words are very difficult for me to form at the moment.  I'll just say a simple and heart felt thank you all for your expressions of love and condolances, and leave it at that for the moment. 
     
    ~Grace~ 
  • Fire-flower said on May 04, 2008....
    The poem is beautiful - thanks for sharing during this difficult time. My thoughts and prayers are with you. Be sure to take care of yourself. (((((((HUG))))))
  • wombat said on May 04, 2008....
    I am so sorry to read this.  I have no words except my deepest condolences for the loss of your friend.  I didn't know until I just now went back to read your other blogs what had been happening,  I don't understand the why of these things, but I know there will be understanding to come on down the line for those of us left behind to grieve.  The poem tore at my heart, but I know it was meant to leave you some comfort, and I pray that it does. 
     
    {{{{{{{hugs from wombat}}}}}}}
  • quietone said on May 04, 2008....
    I didn't know about her illness, I feel really terrible for missing that part.  I did know about the loss of her child.  What a beautiful note she left you full of love.  I do also agree she is now free to love and be with the ones she held so dear here on earth.  Thank you Grace for passing the info on to us.  {{{hugs}}} sorry for the loss of a dear friend.
  • skald said on May 04, 2008....
    I am very sorry. Please accept my condolences. 
  • pickersplock said on May 04, 2008....
    I'm so sorry.
  • Sunshine_Mariah said on May 04, 2008....
    Dearest Heart,
     
    You wrote me just the other day and said the words 'Never Give Up'
     
    I regret that I haven't been following your journey as of late, and to read that you passed. It breaks my heart to know that you wrote me such strong words but were unable to fight yourself. I am also saddened that I was unable to exchange any words with you.
     
    You were a great friend to me, and many others here at SC. I will miss you terribly, but will get through knowing that you are in a better place now and are no longer suffering. You have now joined the other angels who are watching over us forever and always.
     
    See you soon, my friend.
     
    ~Mariah    xoxo
  • dyingman said on May 04, 2008....
    Thank you for this sad news, GracefullyGrowing.

    When she disappeared, it leaves a person befuddled, concerned and worried.

    Sad, as unwanted an emotion as it is, is preferable.


    Like the others, I hope she finds joy in seeing the lost child she loved so much and those left behind find their own peace with her loss.


  • Mr_Box said on May 04, 2008....
    I'm very sorry about your friend, Grace. I hope that you can gain some comfort in knowing that her suffering is over, and now she is with those she lost before.

    I know it seems that she endured so much here on this earth. And she certainly did. But now she's alright and she'll always be with you in spirit. 

    My sympathies go out to you. I'm sorry for your loss.
  • CreativeWoman said on May 04, 2008....
    I am so sorry for your loss, Grace.

    CW
  • soleme said on May 04, 2008....
    Beautiful poem. I'm sorry for the loss of your friend.
  • Eilan said on May 04, 2008....
    I'm very, very sorry.
  • AngelsBorn said on May 04, 2008....

    Grace,

    I, too, was a close friend of MyHeartAches.  She was beautiful, inside and out.  I have tried to find comfort in knowing she is no longer in pain, I hope I will accept it in time.  It's just too raw today.

    AB

  • gingersoul said on May 04, 2008....

    Grace......this is a shoking news.....i commented in some of MyHeart blogs.....her pain has always been so palpable, visible, raw.....I was always asking myself how she could have ever found in her life a new meaning and a new reason.

    The words she was writing about her beloved babie were so deep and full of pain that i had found often myself to be speechless..unable to conevy anything worthy enough to consoling her......

    I am deeply sorry she passed away.

    And i am sorry for you too. Losing a friend is just horrible. {{hugs}}

  • dailyachesandpains said on May 04, 2008....
    I am so saddened to hear of her passing.  This is a horrible loss for SO many people...here and to those that knew her personally. 

    I can only hope that she is at peace...I'm sure she is. 

    {{{{HUGS}}}} and love,
    Daily
  • cntlvmenuf said on May 04, 2008....
    Her beauty does radiate in that picture. Her heart aches no more Grace. She lives on in your heart...for all eternity.
  • Jenna said on May 04, 2008....

     

    Grace........I cannot find the words to express my thoughts for you.  I am sorry for your loss.  That picture you posted......wow.   Love radiates from her smile. We know she is at peace......with  the ones she loves.  

    Her words to you......love is the one thing that will never really die.......it doesn't...it lives on.....right there in your heart...it lives on.  Sounds like you were a treasure to her.

    God bless you sweet one.

     

  • Twylarants said on May 04, 2008....
    This is so sad to hear, Grace. Myheart suffered through so much, much more than one person should have to bear.
    What terrible news.
  • one_wired_kitty said on May 04, 2008....

    So sorry, hon.

    ***HUGS HUGS***

  • moonriver said on May 04, 2008....
    grace, i could say that death is merely a dark passageway from one hall to the next, and perhaps it's not even a one-way and opaque door. your friend is beyond this world's physical suffering now.

    my saying this would not even start to assuage the pain of loss that strikes us when death takes away a loved one, a dear friend. but please know that i share your pain.

  • queenparanoia said on May 04, 2008....

    {{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

    so sorry for your loss... i know your friend would have like that you wrote this post for her...

  • silverwhisper said on May 05, 2008....
    grace, i'm so sorry about g. how beautiful of her to send you that poem, impelled by the desire to ease your pain.

    i am so sorry for your loss, grace.

    [hug]

    ed
  • GracefullyGrowing said on May 05, 2008....

    To Everyone . . .

    All the response is wonderful, and please accept my gratitude and know that you have indeed comforted me.  I just don't have it in me to answer each one of you individually right now. I am finding it difficult to keep my composure.  I'm in a situation at the moment that is not condusive to giving in to my grief so I must "dose" myself in it.

    I will share this with you, however, hoping it will sufice.

    A few days ago G called for my mailing address again. She was going to send me something.  Later I emailed her, and asked her what she was going to send.  She emailed me back and said she wasn't going to tell me.  A few minutes later she emailed me again, teasing me that if she died before she got whatever it was in the mail, that it would drive me absolutely bananas with curiosity.   Ya know what?  She was right! LOL  She knew me well!  That was SO typical of her fun personality and sense of humor.  The little snot is going to be teasing me every time I go to the mailbox for the rest of my life.  LOL.   It may seem strange to you, but this comforts me.   

    In February I had started making an afghan for G.  I have it about half finished.  Yesterday I thought about working on it, but I couldn't.  At first I thought, "What's the point? She's gone.  She can't use it."  But when I dried my eyes yet again, I decided I'm going finish the afghan after all, though I still couldn't motivate myself to work on it right then. 

    But I will finish it, and I have a person in mind to send it to. 

    Thank you all.  SO very much.

    ~Grace~

  • crybabylu said on May 06, 2008....
    everytime i come here and re-read this, i start crying all over again. i almost can't bear it that she is gone, the only relief is in knowing she is with her babies...love, dee
  • purposeful said on May 07, 2008....
    i missed this till now, my deepest sympathies extended.
  • Carefully said on May 07, 2008....
    this is a nice post, grace.

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