It's interesting to me, and maybe a little bit sad that i am willing and eager to bare my soul, and submit to the desires of Master, a man i've known for a relatively short time. Yet, i would never dream of doing the same with the man i've been married to for most of my adult life. i've been asked before if I would consider sharing my submissive needs with him and asking him to dominate me. My answer is always an immediate, definite NO.
First of all, i know him well enough to know that he doesn't have a dominant bone in his body. i'd spend a lot of time topping from the bottom, something in which i have little interest. i think the biggest reason though, is that i don't trust him to know what my true needs are. Nor do i trust him to listen without judging me. There is much i don't share with him.
i know that Master appreciates my submission for the gift that it is. He's a very special man. W/we share a very close connection that i have never felt with anyone else. As i sit here now, i can't think of anything i wouldn't share with Him. i might be embarrassed or uncomfortable, but i would tell Him anything He wanted to know.
In a perfect world, my husband would also be my Dominant. That's not possible, so this is the compromise i've made in order to give my submissive needs a voice. Master allows me the very great pleasure of serving His desires, and that completes me in ways i never thought would happen.
