Okay, so let me first state something right off the bat. I am an independent thinking woman. I think for myself, and nobody, NOBODY, can make me have a different opinion of anyone, or stop talking to anyone, or any of that dramatic teenager bull shit.

So apparently someone seems to assume that I am talking to them less just because my girlfriend doesn’t like them. Well I will neither confirm or deny this factor, as this is her place to state her opinion about how she feels, not mine either way. I will tell you this.

I am not like all the shit talkers you correlate with. If I have a problem, I will tell you when asked, or when I get pissed off about something. I am not like all those people who associate with the shit talkers who form an opinion based off the shit talkers, and not their own. I make my own opinions, and my girlfriend knows she is free to interject her opinion and I will listen to it, but I will not form my opinion off of hers. I will make my own judgment like a big girl, and I will move on with my day. This goes for friends as well. She could loathe someone to the ends of the earth, and I will listen to her, and I will not bring them around her as much as possible, but I know I will still talk to them if I like them, and she doesn’t expect me to stop talking to them. She respects my opinions and judgments, and will let me do as I please. Also known as, I haven’t stopped talking to you as much as I have because she hates you or anything. I have done so on my own concurrence, and you know exactly why.

You can believe everything those fucking bitches talk about me, but that doesn’t make it fucking true. You can believe just one thing they say, and guess what, it STILL doesn’t make it true. Guess what else? I still won’t fucking care one bit. Have you not learned that about me yet? I truly deeply do not give a fuck what other people think of me. I am me, and they can deal with it, or fuck off!

I have stopped associating with you as much, because you claim that I am your best friend, but you go and agree and talk shit with the two people that hate me most. If someone talks shit about your “best friend”, you stand up for them, no matter what the circumstance is, you don’t join in. You should watch out who you talk to, because a couple of them came running to me like fucking Fido or some shit. I even talked to LORI that night, yes, Lori, and she was collaborating what these other people told me who heard bits and pieces. So don’t even try to back out of this one. Oh, and this is not the first time you have been caught talking shit about me, so don’t even play that card, you are not all innocent and all that shit. I don’t want to be informed every time oompa loompa (Spencer) and Sparro are somewhere. I don’t fucking care, if they hate me so much, they can avoid me, and fucking deal with it, I am not going to change my life for them… lol seriously. The only reason you say that shit is to get a rise out of me, and it doesn’t work. I still don’t care! So stop it seriously.

So you can keep writing all the pity my shit, woah is me, yadda yadda, and I will still know you are full of shit. You want me to talk to you so badly, start telling the fucking truth, and stop manipulating both sides, because everyone sees it. You can’t be liked by everyone, someone is going to fucking hate you, and right now, you are sure pissing my side and my friends off, AND the other side of my enemies.

Why don’t you grow up for once and form an opinion of your own for once. That would be a start in getting some friends who want to talk to you and hang out. You wonder why “nobody cares”, well I will tell you everyone is fed up with your side playing, so own up to it, and deal with it. Everyone knows what you are doing or trying to do, and we all see it. All you are doing is conforming yourself to people so they will like you better, and all it does is make them see you are lying. Now this sounds familiar??? I know you were left by “Hellen” because of your lying and manipulation. Hellen saw right through it though, and you told her that you would fix it, stop it, make your own opinions, and what has happened? You are still pulling the same shit. So oh, guess what, you are still the same, you haven’t gotten any better. Friends are going to continue to leave, and not care as long as you keep this shit up. Give it time. I know that is what Hellen needed, was time to see through your two sided bull shit.

So there you go, THAT is why I have stopped talking to you as much. You start drama. Your just as bad as Lori, well maybe not AS bad, but pretty damn close. Stop all this shit, and you may start to see a change, and not just in me I assure you that one.

What really gets to me? You act like I need your approval or something to make this largest happiest decision of my life. I don't need anyones approval, nor will I ever. I don't have to talk anyone, ESPECIALLY YOU about it if I am not ready or I do not want to. Mainly, I feel it is none of your business, and you need to stop trying to live through Lily and I vicariously. That is life, and again, you can deal with it. You are 17 and haven't hit shit yet, you will be in for a reality check when you have to pay rent and electric and all that shit on your own, OH BOY I can't wait to see that one!

P.S. Del and Kat don’t want you all over Crystal like you were Saturday. Crystal doesn’t either, she just didn’t want to be mean or start anything. Or at least that is what she told Del. I meant to tell you that Saturday on the drive home along with all the other people that complained about you all over them, but I was too tired. Nobody likes that shit, so stop it. There, I delivered the message as promised by all of them. Del was going to say something, he is not scared, he just had to leave, especially since Kat was so upset, when you have been previously warned about that shit with her in particular. I will tell you, if you pull that shit with engaged people, you are going to make their future spouse beat your ass, or hate you. If you did that shit with Lily I would fucking kill you. I know if she saw you on me like that, she would beat your ass too. You can’t pull that shit, a lot of people don’t like you all over them like that, Okay? Grow up and respect other people and their partners and space. Jasus…You can go around and ask all you want, chances are if they came to me to say it because they aren’t as blunt as I am, they won’t admit it. That is not lying, that is not wanting to start drama, something you are not used to I understand. Well get used to it, because everyone is tired of it. Cutting solves nothing, and nobody feels bad about it, they are tired of the cry wolf shit with you. So there you go, I tried to not say that shit and be nice, but you left me no alternative. Deal with it, people are tired of your shit, that is why not that many people talk to you. Call or text me when you grow up, which I don’t see any time soon. You can write another blog full of opinions based off what other people say, go right ahead, because I still don’t fucking care. People are staring to see through your shit.

For your information, Lily really liked you and wanted to be your friend in the beginning. When you started getting possessive over me hanging out with her when nothing was going on, and all that shit is when she started to see who you were and what you were about. You pushed us together. Nothing was happening. She had a B/F at the time and was pretty serious with him, and on the path of monogamy. When you started obsessing and getting all jealous and shit, is when we started getting closer. YOU pushed Lily and I together and Helen and yourself apart, just for your information. You obviously were not EVERYTHING that made us get together and find interest in each other, but you were the first reason, and a factor all the way through. So yeah, thanks!

Grow up seriously, you have to one day.

Iceis