About a month ago one of my cousins got married and tons of my family came into town for the wedding. My aunt & uncle and 2 cousins stayed with us and I had to share my bedroom with my cousin Katie. This was bad because I'm 13 and when I'm asleep, well, babies have better poop and pee control than I do, so I wear diapers at night. And once in a while I've had an accident during the day. (At home I am supposed to be in a diaper at all times unless we're expecting company)  Luckily never in public. Katie, who's 10, doesn't wear diapers and she's 3 years younger than me! That was really embarassing, as you can imagine. It gets worse 'cuz my Mom's too cheap to get me Goodnights or anything like that. I have to wear those small sized adult diapers and lay down so she can put them on me. Katie was fascinated by this and insisted on watching each night. She'd ask my mom questions like "Do you have to change her or can she do it herself?" my mom answered, "No she can't change herself its pretty tricky to change her but its much harder to change yourself." and haven't you tried to fix this? make her go through potty training again?" Katie asked, and my mom answered, "We've gotten to think of her accidents as a way to bond, you know to get a better mother-daughter relationship. But we still have tried to get trid of these problems, If it leaks and makes a big mess I may change her into an extra absorbent diaper and she'll have to clean it up and go the rest of the day with nothing else on. no matter what we have planned. but it never does anything but embarrass her till she cries. And for some reason when she cries she always pees and poops. Sometimes I think she poops or pees just when she wants attention."  One night she did change me, and Katie woke up and watched and said, " Hey Aunt Sue, do you think I could change her a few times? I want to do some babysitting jobs when I get a little older." "Sure you can, it would be a great practice for you but you'll have to get used to the smell so we'll wait till she fills again. You know what? she just won't use the bathroom for a while then you'll get even more practice, because a dirty diaper will pop up at any moment when your baby sitting!" she said just as she was taping on the last side. The next few days my mom made me eat and drink load after load, and wear my diapers all day and all night and wouldn’t let me use the bathroom or talk so I pretty much had to act exactly like a baby. I even had to wait to eat so Katie could feed me baby food to get practice for that to. And because the noise that the diapers make when you walk is so loud, I either tried to get up a the same time as a group of people or until every one already left. When I finally "went" I was watching TV with a lot of the relatives and it was very smelly. I had to get up very carefully and go get my mom and Katie and just sit on the floor till they finally got the hint. then when Katie was changing me my friend, Emily came in, she still hasn’t stopped making fun of me. Saying stuff like, “Your little Cousin has better control than you and she changes you!!” and every time I fart she says, “Hey BABY, awww did you make a mess in your nappies?” I had to endure all this, PLUS I heard my other cousin, Brian, talk about me wearing diapers with another toddler who was visiting for the wedding, their both 5 but Brian is the only other one who wets the bed, but he wore pullups not diapers. One night I heard him saying to someone: "Megan wears DIAPERS, and I don't!" luckily neither of them have ever been trust worthy so nobody beleaves them.  I wanted to kill him though, the little brat!!! Then the last straw was the day of the wedding. I was a flower girl. Just as I got out of the shower and was ready to get dressed, my mom comes into my room, grabs a diaper, and tells me to lay down! I knew I wasn't going to have an accident, but she insisted saying, "well you should wear one just incase. because If you cry at the wedding (just as a reminder: I "go" when I cry) and you don't wear one at least it won't be as noticable! besides I love changing babies, and your just a big one now lay down!" so I layed down and just as she was finishing me up and leaving the room. Brian came in and I started to cry and plop it went. My diaper was filled and it was still coming out. not to mention I was peeing like crazy. I quickly pushed Brian out and locked the door. and I used the phone in my room to call my mom on her cell. She came back in the room and and gave me a tickling snd I stopped crying. and she said, " I can't leave you alone for 2 minutes without you making a mess!!!" She cleaned me up and put a new diaper on me. and sent me on my way. At the wedding there were 6 of us as flower girls, and 2 of the younger kids, who were 6 and 8, also had on diapers or pullups. I guess the parents were worried that we'd have to go during the ceremony, and we had to stand still up by the front with the bride & groom.  While I was up there I started to cry it was so beautiful and.... I had an accident and because I was so embarrassed, it was a double. When I told my mother she said she couldn't change me because there were too many people every place we went. We just got the wedding pictures back and I'm beet-red in all of them. Not to mention you can see the wet diaper sticking out from under my dress. That was defiantly the most embarrassing 3 days of my life. More recently she’s been getting me those huggies diapers that very thin and inconspicuous though I’ve still have both kinds of accidents. Who ever reads this entry, and has a question or wants to talk leave a comment or message me, please!