GrapeKoolaid posted on Apr 23, 2008
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On my description of my weekend a few weeks ago here, I left out one small detail. I wasn't quite forthright with you all. It seemed like an insignificant detail at the time. That's why I left it out. But see, that night, I did get a phone number from one of the girls. I didn't mention anything because I didn't think it would lead anywhere. Before I left the bar with my friend, one of the girls and I exchanged phone numbers. I instinctively put the little piece of paper in my pocket and forgot all about it.
Then, a few days later, my phone rang. I didn't recognize the phone number, but I picked up the phone anyways, as not many people have the number to my cell phone. Usually, I don't pick up the phone if I don't recognize the number, but for some reason unbeknownst to me, I picked it up. I guess it was one of those instances where fate guides your hand. On the other side of the phone was a feminine voice that I didn't recognize.
"Grape?" She asked nervously. I could hear a feint tremor in her voice.
"This is he", I answered. "Who's this?"
"This is L". Said the voice on the phone.
"Who?" I asked. I didn't know anyone by that name.
"L", she said. "Don't you remember? We met last week. You drew my friend at the Dark Room."
"Oh", I said. "Yeah, I remember you. Howzit goin'?"
To be honest, I really didn't remember her at all. Which one was she? I'm so bad with names and faces...
"Alright", she said coquettishly. "I don't usually call guys I meet at the bar, but I just wanted to call and say hi. Hi!" A nervous giggle followed.
"Why, hello", I said. Her laughter was infectious and I found myself smiling widely. I think she could tell that I was smiling also, because she got over her nervousness and really warmed up to me. We talked on the phone for a little while, but I had to run along, so we agreed to meet at a coffee shop I frequent later on that night.
When she walked in the door, I immediately recognized her. How could I have forgotten? Her blonde hair, her coy smile lit up the room like a lighthouse in the dead of night. She sat across the table from me, looped her hair behind her ear and looked at me with those eyes and I was immediately disarmed. What cool exterior I might have possessed, what calm demeanor I might have had, what wall I might have built up came tumbling down, and I was a bumbling fool, stammering to find the right words.
When I get nervous, I talk with my hands and I caught myself greatly animated and visibly excited in my movements. I think she sensed it too, and I think she was greatly amused by it. Even though she tried her best to hide her mirth, the smile suppressed on her lips and behind her eyes gave her away and I melted, right there on the spot.
We ended up talking all night that night. We were kicked out of the coffee shop long after closing time, and we went to the beach just to sit and talk. We filled the night with conversation and ended up watching the sun come up the next morning.
That was over two weeks ago, and I've seen her every day since then. Those days I've missed her, I've touched base with her by phone, even if it was only just briefly to say hello. We've been inseparable the last few weeks, making everyone around us sick with envy. I mean, there's something real and exciting about it all, you know? To say that there's a spark would be an understatement. I've caught myself walking around with a big silly grin on my face, and everyone around me has noticed a change in my behavior and demeanor. I feel a genuine connection with her that I haven't felt with another person in a long time.
I mean, I feel like I'm a teenager all over again and I have butterflies in my stomach! Even her text messages gets my pulse racing. The text messages don't ever say much... Just a simple message saying that she thinks of me, but the care and thought she exhibits sends my head spinning and gets me all flustered. Another butterfly in my stomach, and I think I may fly! :D
The attraction I feel for this girl is like a force of nature... She's like a hurricane that has swept me off my feet, tossed me about and left me wondering where I am...
It's far more than a cerebral appreciation. I find her beautiful, charming, witty, sophisticated, smart, sensual, sensuous, and most of all, I love the fact that she's accepts me and likes me just as I am. She doesn't judge me at all... This connection I share with her seems to have it all... The physical, mental, emotional and spiritual connection... I never thought such a thing would be possible, but here I am, and here it is. :)
I know that fresh love is always an exciting thing, and such things have a way of going stale, or fizzling out, but for now, I don't think about that kinda stuff and have just been taking it all in. Savoring each little moments we share together...
I don't have much time to spend on here, as I have to see her again this evening. I just wanted to drop you a note as to the real reason I haven't been around much lately. I apologize for not keeping up with all of you. In the face of something that could be quite real, I couldn't turn away from this one chance of bliss.
Please wish me luck. I can use all I can get at this point.
I hope I'll be able to hold her interest and her desire of me indefinitely. :)
If you could only see how happy I am right now!!! I think you would all dance with me. :D
[Twirling, spinning around the room]
Thanks for stopping by,
Grape.
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P.S. To my Secret Crush: First, I wanted to tell you that I am sorry if I have disappointed you in any way. It was never my intention to do so. I don't want you to be disappointed in me at all... You see, the anonymity was just a gap that was too hard for me to bridge... Plus, you must admit that there lacked an utilitarian aspect to this little crush of mine, wouldn't you agree?
However, I wanted to take this time and place to thank you for being here for me all this time... Dreaming of you led me to appreciate this girl that much more. You also allowed me to express my deep sense of longing and gave me a chance to be ready to open up myself to her. For that, I will forever be in your debt and I am eternally grateful.
You will always occupy a very special place in my heart, and I will always admire and appreciate you. It's just that now I have to make room for another, in the quick.
Thank you so much...
GKA.
Comments
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Zayda said on Apr 23, 2008....
I don't have to "see" you to know how happy you are, so...
[twirls about the room and giggles giddily]
Okay...enough of that twirling for me. I made myself dizzy.
Grape, I'm so glad to see you happy. And I'm happy for you.
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the_infernal_optimist said on Apr 23, 2008....
Awww, yay, Grape! ((happy hugs))
I'd dance in celebration of your happiness, but I'd just fall and bust my butt. Instead:
[throws confetti and grins like a dork]
~Infernal
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CreativeWoman said on Apr 23, 2008....
I am so very happy for you, Grape! This couldn't happen to a more deserving person. :-) She's a lucky girl.
CW
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Twylarants said on Apr 23, 2008....
She is a lucky girl, and also very smart. If she'd waited for you to call her, we all wouldn't be dancing right now, would we?
Enjoy your new romance, Grape!
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crybabylu said on Apr 23, 2008....
I'll say she is too, a very luck girl! What a truly fitting video too! Gotta luv the beatles.. *Laughing* good post, grape....enjoy! -
Lioness said on Apr 24, 2008....
goodluck grape! happiness is a contagious thing.. we all deserve that! :D -
Alyss said on Apr 24, 2008....
Dear Grape, I am so very happy for you. =) -
Actorguy said on Apr 24, 2008....
That's fantastic Grape! I don't think you'll need it but, Good Luck anyway! -
fearing said on Apr 24, 2008....
I'm so happy for you Grape! -
Mamie said on Apr 24, 2008....
you are a silly nut! That song is funny!! Have a blast, we are behind you 100 percent!! xoxoxomamie -
Me-Myself&I said on Apr 24, 2008....
Im glad for you too! that is so cool, enjoy. I hope this fills your spot in your heart. Take care ~see ya -
Sunshine_Mariah said on Apr 24, 2008....
congrats -
mobil said on Apr 24, 2008....
I am heartbroken, but will always remember the time we had, we had time right? -
GrapeKoolaid said on Apr 24, 2008....
Zee: :D Thank you! I haven't been able to stop smiling for the last few weeks.
infernal: My face hurts from all the silly grinning... :)
CeeDub: Thank you for thinking so well of me... I happen to think that I'm the lucky fella. :)
Twyla: Indeed she is the smart one! :) Oh we stayed up all night discussing science, philosophy, international politics, music, art, history the other week... I'm quite smitten... :)
cblu: Thank you. Yes, gotta love the Beatles... They thought of everything, you know? A music for every occasion. :D
Lioness: Yes... Happiness is contagious, and I wish to infect you all with it! >:D
Alyss: My sweet Alyss... Thank you... I'll let lady fortune know to send some of her smile your way as well. :)
Actorguy: Thanks! I need all the luck I can get at this point... We've been spending so much time with each other lately, I may run out of material. LOL! Need to keep things fresh, you know? :D
fearing: Thank you! I know your kind thoughts of me had a big part in lady fortune smiling down on me. ;)
Mamie: A silly nut! Yesss! That's me! :D Thanks for your support and warm, squishy wishies!!! I need them! :)
MM&I: Oh she has filled a spot long vacant in my heart... I've been positively gushing the last few days... :) Thanks!
Sunshine: Hey you... Thanks for dropping in... You doin' alright there? I'm sending you some smiles your way. :)
mobil: Aww... Don't be... You still have a special place in my heart, mobil... ;) And yes... What time we've had!!! Who knows? Maybe in a few weeks I'll come back saying, "I wish I knew how to quit you". :D
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MissMimi said on Apr 24, 2008....
[throwing heart-shaped confetti]
GrapeApe, I can't think of anyone who deserves this special kind of happiness more than you. I am absolutely thrilled that you've found someone who is as special as you are. I can see you glowing from here. :)
{{hugs}}
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uniquely-ironic said on Apr 24, 2008....
How absolutely wonderful that you have this fresh exciting love!!! Paleeeese let us live vicariously through you so we can have it again too.
[grins]
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LadyGamer said on Apr 24, 2008....
Oh Purply One~
How WONDERFUL!!! You don't need to try to 'hold her interest'. Just show your interest in her. Be you and that will be more than enough.
You don't need luck, but I send you what I can anyway.
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dailyachesandpains said on Apr 24, 2008....
YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY GRAPEY!!!!I remember those days too! That feeling and the butterflies and chills! Awe...I'm so happy for our grape with the secret crush! Now that you and secret crush are uhhhh, I don't even know....can you tell us your secret crush?lolDaily -
LtCmdrWorf1 said on Apr 24, 2008....
Grape,
You're going to do fine. You have a good heart. All you can do is let her see that and make up her own mind. I've never even met you and I'm impressed with you. I can only imagine what she must see in you face to face. Peace and Long Life
Love Worf
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namyogrl said on Apr 24, 2008....
doin the happy dance for you, love is so grand enjoy this time -
quietone said on Apr 24, 2008....
This is wonderful grape, I am so happy for you. In reading this post, it was like reading eviltwins post when he met Natalie... almost the same words! Keep smiling ~ enjoy ~ -
GrapeKoolaid said on Apr 24, 2008....
Mimi: [dancing amongst the falling confetti] I'm just beaming!!! Thank you Mimi! :D
Uni: Oh you got it. I intend to infect you all with my glee! I'll keep you all updated regularly. ;)
LadyG: Thank you... Your words mean much to me. They always have... :)
daily: LOL! Still curious, are you? :D Perhaps I'll do a post with the big reveal one day. For now, just know that you occupy a special place in my heart(hint hint) :D Ah yes... The butterflies in my stomach and my heart, so ready to leap out of my chest... It's been so long... I missed it so...
Worf: Many thanks to you, kind sir. I've been reading you for quite some time now and I must say that it is indeed high praises coming from you, for I hold you in the highest regard. I'd be honoured to call you my friend. :)
namyogirl: I love to see you doing your happy dance!!! :D I will. I do. Cherish each moment, that is... Every moment I spend with her, though the time flies, I try to preserve each moment, each breath, each word, etched forever in my mind... :)
quiet: :) I remember that story... It was a great story, too. They had a happy ending, didn't they? I am cautiously optimistic about the story I weave with my special lady as well... :) -
Lucytorial said on Apr 24, 2008....
:-} -
wombat said on Apr 24, 2008....
I wanted to read this this morning, but didn't have time--now I wish I had so I could have been happy for you all day long! This is absolutely wonderful! I love hearing about someone finding someone that makes them so happy like this! I know you deserve it and am so glad that this new lady has come into your life! -
Fallyn said on Apr 24, 2008....
AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!!!!!!!!!!!!! -
gingersoul said on Apr 24, 2008....
Grapelicious.....i am smiling from ear to ear here.....i am so happy for your new situation....finally, love has come....i know you are feeling like walking on the clouds......:-)..and i think your secret crush is proud of having helped in preparing you for this love....
I wish you to hold tight to it and never let it go.....surrender and be happy.........{hugs}
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Lady_Emma said on Apr 24, 2008....
Congridusmatins...............consulutaios.......cabubulamens.........*hic*hic*best of luck...............sorry, I've been drinking again! *hic*Hamlet popped over for a little drink! We're going to call up Othello, later, and leave rude messages on his footnoter phone! -
vacantmind said on Apr 24, 2008....
How awesome! I think you made every girl envious with that post. So geniune and sweet. Congrats! -
hotaka said on Apr 24, 2008....
Wow, grapemate! I am glad I stopped by to read this. What great news. And you write about it so beautifully it could be from a novel. Not the trashy romance novels, I mean you write really well. And I am happy to read about this. I know last year was a tough one for you and you went through some trying times. But all that is behind you now and look where you have reached. I feel like throwing a little party for you... no, a big party for you right now.
The way you describe things it doesn't sound like it's going to fizzle out so easily. The most important thing to keep the sparks going. My K and I are in our happiest time these days and we've been together for most of eight and a half years. Of course, we have the baby to be excited about but we still show our appreciation for each other every day. Just keep it warm and loving and exciting. You might find that even after eight years you can still feel butterflies when she touches your hand. -
silverwhisper said on Apr 24, 2008....
ah grape...i really don't think she'd (your secret crush) ever object to you finding some happiness for yourself. :>
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Lidiaxxx said on Apr 25, 2008....
Hi there :) its my first time on your blog..but i couldnt resist leaving a comment on your post...it really brought up my mood up..i don't even know you and im happy for you :D..I gusse i love hearing about people in love!! *sigh* and i LOVE that song..epescially since its also in my favourite movie..and i wish you luck! Ciao :)
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GrapeKoolaid said on Apr 25, 2008....
Lucy: :)
wombie: Thank you. I am extremely glad that she's in my life, too. :)
Fallyn: Tee hee hee! :D
ginger: Thank you! I do surrender! [puts hand up] I am a willing captive. :)
Lady_E: Let me call a cab for you... You're in no condition to drive. C'mon now... Gimme your keys! :D
vacant: [blushing] Thank you... It was never my intention to make anyone jealous or envious. It was just that this post was about to explode out of my heart, you know? I just had to share... :)
hotaka: Ah! Buddy! I'm so glad you could drop in! LOL! Thanks for your kind words. :) I guess cruising for chicks in Hawaii is definitely out of the question now. :) Eight years... I look forward to that... And so much more... I wish you and K to grow old together and have a whole choir of little hotakas and Ks running around singing you songs in perfect harmony. :D
ed: Yeah... You know, one of the reasons why I was so drawn to my secret crush initially was her caring nature and her understanding. :)
Lidiaxxx: Hi! Welcome to my blog. :) I haven't been around much lately, but I read a lot more than I comment. I've seen you before(even your photos). :) I apologize for not introducing myself sooner. [shakes hand] Nice to meet you. I'm glad this little post of mine made you happy. It was my pleasure to share with you.
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To all: Whew! That's a lot of smiley faces! I haven't been able to stop smiling for the last few weeks now. My face hurts for real. :)
Happiness can be highly contagious and I wish to infect you all with it, so here goes. :)
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Battycat said on Apr 25, 2008....
Oh, I'm sooo happy for you grape, you had me grinning from ear to ear as I read your post, and nearly blubbing!!!!!!The very best of luck and good wishes :-D -
hotaka said on Apr 25, 2008....
Nice image, grape. I am hoping for a duo though and not a choir! Looking forward to hearing more good news from you. Ah, Hawaii. It was all just a dream anyway, wasn't it? -
Lucytorial said on Apr 25, 2008....
Heres cheers big ears for finding out that really love is all that matters... I hope your heart explodes and you both fly away to your own treasured space in life... you deserve it my cherished friend, more than even you know. -
GrapeKoolaid said on Apr 26, 2008....
Batty: [beaming] I'm happy for me, too. We spent last night together just talking and holding each other... My head's still floating... Her voice still in my ear.. Thanks...
I'm going to be dreamily distracted all day, I'm afraid... :)
hotaka: LOL. Yeah... Hawaii was a nice thought to entertain for a while, but reality is so much nicer now, innit? I get the feeling your duet would sound most sweet... :D
Lucy: KA-BOOM! That's the sound of my heart exploding...
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Lady_Emma said on Apr 26, 2008....
My heads exploding too, but I think it's from all that mead I drank in The Once And Future King! -
GrapeKoolaid said on Apr 26, 2008....
:D
Lady_E: Hope Hamlet didn't push his boundaries last night. Arthur too? You're a busy lady... ;)
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Lady_Emma said on Apr 26, 2008....
Yes, well, someday, when I can spare the time, I'll tell you all about it. -
gingersoul said on Apr 26, 2008....
Emma.......hey, can't wait to know some of these juicy border crossing stories as well......
I love reading history....
The past is always teaching us lessons...dont you agree? ....even in these crazy matters of love...;-)
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Lady_Emma said on Apr 26, 2008....
Yes, indeed, Ginger! -
GrapeKoolaid said on Apr 26, 2008....
King Arthur and Prince Hamlet clashing foils for the affections of one (slightly inebriated)Lady_Emma...
What a particularly curious situation... ;)
Oh to be a fly on that wall... :D
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diabolicdame said on Apr 26, 2008....
I thought I had commented on this but seems my comment got eaten! so here goes again..
Yay! I'm happy for you grape! Doesn't it feel nice to be spinning, twirling around the room? :-D
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wishyouwerehere said on Apr 26, 2008....
Ohh this is so wonderfully romantic! Best of luck, Grape! -
KathQuiet said on Apr 27, 2008....
Luck? sounds like you've loads of the good kind. You've found love. : ) Best wishes! -
GrapeKoolaid said on Apr 28, 2008....
ddame: Indeed it does, dear lady... Indeed it does... SC has a habit of eating comments sometimes... I'm glad you could drop in again. :D
wishyouwerehere: Thank you!!! It is wonderfully romantic, innit? I'm just tickled pink by it! :)
KathQuiet: I don't think we've ever met. If we have, please forgive me and my poor memory. Hi and welcome to my blog! It does seem like I have loads of good luck. You're quite astute in pointing that out. :) I need more, though. Much much more!!! Thanks for your well wishes! :)
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Oh it was another glorious weekend, her and I dancing about, filling the night with sweet conversation... Lying in bed with her head on my shoulder... Whispering sweet nothings into each others ear... Saturday night, we stayed up pretty late, well into the night. I had worked all day Saturday, so towards the end of the night, I was making very little sense and mumbling things about family reunions(don't ask me where that came from. I don't know either). She just smiled and held me close to her and said, "go to sleep baby..."
When I woke up, she was gone, but she was only out walking her dog. When she came back in, we spent the morning and the afternoon together. She made eggs and coffee, and we had breakfast together, basking in each other's presence. Well... I don't know how much basking she was doing, but I was certainly warm... :) We got caught up in "conversation"(hint hint) and let our coffees and eggs get cold, but it didn't matter. The cold coffee sweetened by our exchange and cold eggs seasoned by our love was the best breakfast I could ever imagine...
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diabolicdame said on Apr 28, 2008....
Awwww.. look at you.. I bet you're actually glowing! I'm glad you had such a nice weekend.. new love is so so sweet!! :-) -
GrapeKoolaid said on Apr 28, 2008....
[beaming]
Oh this weekend was just dreamy... I'm still floating... I've been smiling all day...
My face hurts... :D
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Lucytorial said on Apr 28, 2008....
ahhh the glow of young love and lots of sex!
I bet its not just your face that hurts from smiling huh?? I bet your hearts bursting because of this lovely little thing called - letting her in??? yes??
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JadeLondon said on Apr 28, 2008....
I cannot think of anyone more deserving. I am glad to see you are well--and then some. Your telling was very poignant, palpable. -
GrapeKoolaid said on Apr 29, 2008....
Lucy: Letting her in? Yesss... More appropriately, her letting me in. ;)
JadeL: o_O !!! I am freaking out over here! Is that really you?!!! You've been gone for so long... I've missed you something fierce!!! Very nice to see you! [hugs hugs hugs] :D
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Lucytorial said on Apr 29, 2008....
naughty boy.... teeheheee
miss you heaps grape.
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anonymous said on May 01, 2008....
You're a good man, GrapeKoolAid.
I wish you as much happiness as is humanly possible to experience in any given lifetime.
*hug*
Anon.
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GrapeKoolaid said on May 02, 2008....
Lucy: It seems that you always catch me as I'm heading out, or vice versa... We'll catch up soon, ok? :)
Anon: Thank you for your kind words and your well wishes. :)
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iamshay said on May 04, 2008....
awww!!! Mr. Grape=> reading your post brought wide smile to my face in front of my colleagues. they been wonderin' what im up to, it's just that your telling was very romantic. I can even imagine you dancing in the tune of love.=)
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