so i havent wrote in a while! but theres much to be said, first an update, so far minus 34 pounds, im back in my old HighSchool jeans! and so excited, for once since Highschool i feel excited, and sexy, and pretty!
:) so back to my fate testing issue again- well i started emailing a rather nice 20 year old man who's in the ARMY, and currently in Afghanistan. It was just emailing, and he emailed me first really, we just chatted, about life, love, work, college, friends, and family. Just everything, it was nice, comfortable. We had both seen one pic of each other and decided to myspace each other. Sure, why not? Come to find out, his other pictures showed more of his face, in his previous picture you could'nt tell how chisseled his features were, or how bright blue his eyes are, he's i dare say perfect looking! All you women know, one of those model type guys that you see, and think wow, amazing, and definatly would'nt ever be interested in me!
That is what I thought, and then I get the email from him, just so sensual, and amazing. Talking about how he's been hurt in past relationships and he knows I have. More emailing exchanged and then he asked for my phone number, wanting to call just to chat. So, I figured why not? So, I emailed it to him one night, and got a phone call first thing the next morning, I answered to a warm, sweet voice, of him asking if it was me? and then i could tell he was smiling, and he said, "Well, I bet you don't know who this is?" once i said his name he lauged and told me good morning! i was hooked! we chatted for about 2 hours! about just radomness, and fun things. learning more about each other. We still chat via email, and sometimes phone when he can call.
So, we've both seen tons more pictures of each other, an share our fears about dating again, and what we want in life. And, there I was a few days later reading a email about how he likes me! And would love to see me when he comes home! Yes, he doesn't live far from me, and I became extremely excited! I told him I liked him too, and its become so much more than that now! it's as if im falling in love, i know it may sound crazy, but its not! we both want so many of the same things in life, and no, we arent saying were meant to be yet, but wouldn't it be amazing if it happened!
he's just so great, amazing, sweet, romantic! everything! i find myself wondering about him every second! and i love hearing from him! its' like he fills this void, this empty spot in my heart that needs to be filled. i've never been happier.
please leave me some comments on what you think, am i just losing it? or could this really be something?
-falling fast!
