What the hell was i thinking?
No seriously..now that i think about it..what was i thinking?...Lets recap here for a second..
As i mentioned from my "love life" post..i thought i had a connection with R. And i had a chance to make an attempt to see if he felt the same way. So last night at the party..i drank a bit..but because of my good genes (ha-ha) it takes alot to get me drunk. But he didn't know that...so i pretended to be a bit drunk. We were dancing for a bit and then i acted a bit tipsy so he said maybe we should sit down. Being the amazing actor that i was i just said "Ooooooooooyaaaaaaaah totallllllllly" ..Wow im pretty convicing when i "act" drunk. Anyways were sitting down..and i start pretty much hitting on him..you know touching his arm..and then i leaned in and kissed him. Not just any kiss ..i pretty much FULL on kissed him. I can't explain it but i never kissed someone like this my whole body was tingling...And after we parted..he just gave me this look....i gusse he thought i was so drunk ..he didn't really say anything except for "Ok um yeah i think we should get back to the crew"..(crew=our friends)...i couldn't believe it..what the fuck was i thinking?.. i never took the first move and kissed a guy..never..and the first time i do it...he ignores it?????????????????????????????
For the rest of the night i avoided him..and he pretty much avoided me. I was so depressed the entire night that i ended up drunk..this time for real. My friend had to take me aside and tell me to stop drinking. The last thing i remember was being in the car with my friends and yelling to some song...this morning i woke up with MAJOR hangover and not in my bed. Anyways i ended up my friends house who lives near me... i ended walking home. My friends kept asking me what happened because they noticed my excitment go from 100 to ZERO. I refuse to tell them anything............not when im still depressed. I have come to the conclusion i hate men. Honestly im done.
Besides my horrible weekend..and im still suffering from a hangover and its 7pm dammit. How was your weekend?
