• Lucytorial said on Apr 15, 2008....

  hello petite, I always like to see you when you come back, been a while.
  
  now can I ask, why is it you look back when you are walking forward??? why is it when you look back and then look forward you lose courage? lose sight? you started looking forward to go somewhere, that always changes, lifes a journey not a destination, as long as we understand that life changes and we are walking forward then looking back and wondering isn't going to really help us sometimes.
  
  Hindsight is only helpful when learning a lesson, we cannot know the lesson until we come to it, walk past it, and it smacks us in the head... (lol)
  
  Don't fret so much, maybe look at your motivations right now, see whats motivating your second thoughts? its not a closed door, the road doesn't disappear just because you took a left or whatever, its still there, its just a matter of choice.
  
  BTW so nice to see you again!
  
  

• queenparanoia said on Apr 15, 2008....

  petite i know what you feel... it sucks but just hold on...

• anonymous said on Apr 15, 2008....

  there's more to life petite....
   
  being lost sometimes gives u a better understanding to your pupose in life.
   

• Lidiaxxx said on Apr 17, 2008....

  hold on...i know what you mean..there had to be more but hold on...

• petitepapillon said on Apr 17, 2008....

  Lucy ~ I know what you're saying because believe me I've been told not to look back, keep looking forward, and various words/phrases of optimism and what have you.
   
  The problem is I don't feel like I'm moving forward; I feel stuck in my past. Plus, when you've grown up only knowing, seeing, and being treated like shit, it's kinda all you know and all you really look forward to.
   
  And it's probably my way of not getting my hopes up because I've had them smashed too many times before. And it hurts too damn much.
   
  Queen ~ Yes, it sucks and I hate it and everything. And I'm still hanging around, but it's getting harder and harder to keep hanging on. I actually feel like I'm turning into a machine or something.
   
  Anonymous ~ I get told that a lot. It's just hard to see otherwise when it feels like for the umpteenth time, life is going to hell in a hand basket.
   
  Lidia ~ I'm trying to. I really am. But as I said above to Queen, I really do feel like I'm turning into a machine that doesn't care and would rather just get by.

• silverwhisper said on Apr 18, 2008....

  i'm sorry, petite papillon, i don't know what to say beyond what i've said already, i'm afraid.
  
  [hug]
  
  ed

• petitepapillon said on Apr 21, 2008....

  Silver ~ I know. And I'm sorry for being a pain. It's just how I am when I get like this.
   
  I don't really expect anyone to go out of their way to say stuff on entries like these.  I guess I just need to get it all out or whatever so it's not stuck in my head. But I do appreciate the comments you and the others have left me. So thank you. *hugs*

• silverwhisper said on Apr 22, 2008....

  no, please don't apologize--it's what's on your mind and you should get it out--that's why most folks are here at SC in the first place, isn't it? :>
  
  [massive hug]
  
  i keep hoping i'll think of the right thing to say, you know? maybe i'll finally find it after a while?
  
  ed

• petitepapillon said on Apr 22, 2008....

  Silver ~ *hugs* I'm sure you'll find whatever it is you want to say soon enough. Just don't strain your brain or something, okay? : )

• silverwhisper said on Apr 23, 2008....

  what, i shouldn't torture the little hamster in the wheel inside my head to come up with something good? :D
  
  ed

• petitepapillon said on Apr 24, 2008....

  Silver ~ Lol. Ok, ok. Since you seem so hellbent on torturing that little hamster, go for it. : D

• silverwhisper said on Apr 24, 2008....

  o, you just know that i will! :D
  
  ed

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