ada from my first job used to call me librarian extraordinaire. when she does that i smile from ear to ear. its a compliment, knowing for myself that i moved heavens and earth just to be that. extraordinaire. in college i struggled academically. i didnt wanna be a librarian actually. i wanted to be many things, but not a librarian. roy my roommate put it succinctly : "what, you're sweating it out four years of your life so you can shelve books?" ouch. that hurt. that was the year i hit rock bottom, if i was a warrior i'd choose to describe it as being wounded to the soul. i didnt have much choice but as the saying goes, when handed lemons, you make lemonade. and so i did. out of my frustrations from not becoming a journalist, i entered a news organization as a librarian, still with the hopes of turning the tide... of getting a break from the inside. like a tiger waiting for the right time to pounce on its prey, i waited.
fast forward to 6 years--i'm a librarian working for the government, enjoying a few great things in life, my literary and artistic pursuits gracing pages of newspapers or books once in a while. i really cant say that i'm an artist leading a double life of a librarian by day. its still more of the other way around. but i'm happy that i get to vent out some of the excess artistic flares that accumulate time and again. i research, i browse through our catalogs, trace related and amended laws...i'm a full-fledged librarian. hehehe. i must admit that i get a kick seeing people get what they look for. they enter lost and leave enlightened. :) yet i still have this ideas that pop into my head. what if i hold a part time career as a yoga teacher? or write feature articles for magazines and get paid extra? the artist in me mellowed over the years, but i guess it didnt die. more and more ideas like this come poppin, and my eyes just go wild with possibilities. :) an opportunity to write for a lifestyle magazine came in recently through a college friend, but i'm still half-hearted. what really drives me wild is the idea that i can teach yoga in the weekends and inspire people. problem is, where? if i make our house the venue surely there would be security issues, and my mom or sis surely wont approve. so scratch that. it still is a lovely idea though.. :)
have you had similar thoughts like this? isnt it attractive that you can live a much more fruitful life than what you're currently living? share your thoughts!
