The die is cast. The moment has arrived. On the morrow I shall once again be without a computer. This time I have no idea how long it shall last. Until I can no longer tolerate life without it I suppose.
Certainly I will miss many of those I read here. Some for the thought they put into each post they submit, others for the frivolity of it all.
I will miss those with whom I mostly disagree for in their entries they cause me to question my own system of beliefs. I won't miss them for their wrongness (as I percieve it) but rather for their desire to explore truth. Of course not all those with whom I disagree are eager for the truth, but rather for re-enforcement of their errant beliefs. I will miss them also, for in thier ardand defence of the indefensible they demonstrate clearly the futility in arguing with fanatics.
I will miss those with whom I agree, not because we agree but rather because their insights also lend somewhat to my understanding of things. Even those with whom I agree can become tedious although. When I agree in essence with someone but that individual's approach is primarily confrontational, it is difficult to read. I will miss them nonetheless.
I will miss the frivolous polls, the meaningless queries and the non-sensical, because they are entertaining and often somewhat revealing. If each and every time we open the pages of this site we read only the serious and contemplative we would certainly miss quality interaction between folks who are perhaps as close to each other as any real time friends and family. Were we to never let down our guard here ( at least a little bit) our experience would be most unsatisfactory in my opinion.
Certainly I will miss the friendly bickering (notice I said 'friendly') among friends. I will miss the spoofs, pranks and tom-foolery that goes on from time to time.
What I will not miss however, is the nearly ever present tension between several members. I will not miss the name calling and and attempts to disrupt others' right to enjoy their time here. Much of this seems to be founded largely in jealously at some level. Perhaps more accurately envy, coupled with jealously.
There are those envious of others percieved success here in attracting a readership, tose who have achieved some degree of success who jealoulsy protect their turf and a few who simply hate.
These things I shall not miss a whit.
I shall enjoy my time away. I too shall look forward to the time I choose to return. Of one thing I am certain, my absence will be lengthy. Perhaps a year or longer. I shall not return until I have something to say. I whall not return until the draw of this place is so strong that it can no longer be resisted.
Yet, return I shall!
Over the last several weeks there have been many times I chosen not to comment to post I found interesting or particularly amusing. I have done this for a number of reasons of course, but maily because I desired to remain somewhat aloof. I couldn't even begin to explain why, perhaps it is as simple as that I was transitioning myself out of the community. Perhaps it is because I couldn't find the words to express the thought tumbling about in my head. Perhaps I am just tired.
Well I guess I have just about said all that needs be said, so...
Til next.
rww
