It is almost 2 AM. I was just about to go to bed, but like many nights, I have this lingering "I should have done something important today" kind of feeling. Sometimes I stay up way too late hoping I can somehow redeem myself, when perhaps the smarter thing would have been just to have gone straight to bed.
I'm never quite sure what important sort of thing I was supposed to have done.
So just for the record, here are some of the things I feel like I could have, should have, would have done:
1. Write poetry. The thing is, sometimes I think the world doesn't need any more poetry. It's pretty hard to get people to take me seriously as a poet, so then I just get frustrated.
2. Plant a garden. I know I should, but I just haven't had the energy. I cleared the space, and now it just sits there accusing me of being unmotivated.
3. Pray. There again, I have so many mixed feelings about this.
4. Journaling Wasn't I supposed to be writing 3 pages a day?
5. Call my daughter. She's preggers and I really meant to check on her today.
6. Test whether magic is real. No, seriously.
7. Vaccuum. There again, I meant to do it. Doesn't seem all that important, unless I keep 'not' doing it. Will the dust bunnies carry off the house? They just might.
8. Compulsively add 10 things to every list. I'll try to stop at 8. But it will be a struggle.
9. Make my bed...well at least I will have to do that before I get in it.
10. Okay, so I wrote ten. There actually is no number 10. I just felt obsessive compulsive for a moment.
Goodnight Silver...I know you are probably the only one who read my whole entry.
