Tears were rolling down my cheeks. I didnТt want another quitting attempt to be a failure. What hope is there if NOTHING works? In my car, and in tears, I told God I needed Him to BE GOD, right then and there. I looked over at the convenience store and said УGod, I need you to do something really СGod likeТ to help me, because if you donТt I have to go to that store and buy some cigarettes online right now. ThereТs nothing else I can do. I canТt even stop myself from buying them if you donТt help me.Ф Impulsively I grabbed for my bible that I had tucked in the back seat. I didnТt know what else to do. I opened randomly and the pages fell open to Galatians 6:8. If you sow to the flesh you will reap corruption. If you sow to the Spirit you will reap eternal life (health, freedom, etc). These were familiar scriptures I had read a hundred times. Believing I perfectly understood what it meant, I recalled this was the same scripture the Holy Spirit had been whispering to me, very far off in the back of my mind, for a few months. I didnТt know what specifically it was pertaining to during that time and I just let Him whisper it all He wanted. I trusted He would make it clear to me when the time came.