SoulCast - Dreaming

thiscantbeall posted on Apr 03, 2008 | views: 472 | Tags: mine, LETSBEFRIENDS

I’m closing my eyes, tightly squeezing my eyes shut

and looking for myself .

Somewhere in this darkness, as the color behind my eyelids changes from green to purple to black

I will find the girl I was before you changed me into the woman you wanted.

Do you think I’m asleep?

I live my life in the night behind my eyelids.

My world exists here, I exist here, you do not.

My friends are here, friends you would have no part of.

I have money here. And security.

I travel. I write and paint.

My house is open. It’s sunny and airy and inviting and casual and it’s all the things I am and you are not.

And it’s mine, not yours.

My time is mine, not yours.

My thoughts are mine, not yours.

My days and nights are mine, not yours.

Behind my eyelids my world is amazingly beautiful

And you are never invited there.

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catch22 said on Apr 03, 2008....
How did we ever miss talking to one another!?
secretlife said on Apr 03, 2008....

i really love this.

and understand.
catch22 said on Apr 03, 2008....
You have wonderful things to share with those with open hearts & minds.Never stop!
Twylarants said on Apr 03, 2008....
This is so sad.
thiscantbeall said on Apr 03, 2008....
Hello catch22, secretlife, and twylarants. My gosh, are you the 300 people who read this?
I've never written or talked about this side of me, this personal life I live in my head, to anyone before now.
I'm very sorry you understand what it means, secretlife.
I'm glad this place and you all are here.
Me-Myself&I said on Apr 03, 2008....

A very nice post! I enjoyed, thanks. I went and checked your other posts....Welcome to the neighborhood! I hope you enjoy yourself, good folks here.

I'm sorry to say, i related to your words too.

Take care ~see ya
Lucytorial said on Apr 03, 2008....
The world behind my eyelids is mine too, I so understand and like this one.
Actorguy said on Apr 04, 2008....

What a beautiful piece of writing. Thanks for sharing this.
beautifulbecuaseofhim said on Apr 04, 2008....
In my dreams, I am young and beautiful, full of laughter. My life is happy and I am loved by those around me. I'm loved by those he would never accept. I am in MY home, with MY things, living MY life. I dance and sing, I work joyfully. I rest well, live well, laugh often.

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