• Lucytorial said on Mar 29, 2008....

  Thats it paper, I'm going to shoot that ugly voice, its not a nice voice, its destroying you from the inside out...
  
  Seriously I wish I could help with words of kindness, or anything but I hate seeing you like this.
  
  A step taken in life
  A breath inhaled
  
  No vision required
  Hope is not visual
  
  Love is the epitome of life
  you don't need to say a thing.
  
  XO
  
  TL
  

• quietone said on Mar 29, 2008....

  {{{hugs}}}} paper.  Just want you to know I am here.  Lucy said it well.....

• Mamie said on Mar 29, 2008....

  holding your hand...promise, it will get better, you will see. Mamie

• evil_twin said on Mar 29, 2008....

  I really liked what Lucy said. That was good. But just try and hang in there, Paper. I know how you feel. It'll pass though....
  
  -evil_twin LA
  

• Lucytorial said on Mar 29, 2008....

  The only thing I can do is to give you this little bit of my own hopes paper...
  
  
  I hope the burdens,
  that you carry on your back,
  arent to heavy for you,
  
  And I hope the dreams,
  that you wish were real,
  I hope they all come true,
  
  I hope your heart,
  in your chest,
  beats always for someone else,
  
  And I hope you live,
  the life that you live,
  always for yourself,
  
  I hope you do,
  only good things,
  and you always are kind,
  
  I hope you think,
  the thoughts you think,
  thoroughly in your mind.
  

• gingersoul said on Mar 29, 2008....

  Joanna.......I read your cries for help, and you are gentle even in your desperation....timid even in your worst anxiety...

  I think that you accomplished many things in your life...despite the cold dark that lives in you...you can be proud of yourself...

  it takes courage and a heart of steel to keep fighting each single day like you fight..

  Look at your beautiful girls and give the hand to your man who adores you, who clearly adores you...

  A small step at the time.....its all you can do....we can do.

  I know you are a fighter.

   

• Me-Myself&I said on Mar 30, 2008....

  Sending my love, prayers, thoughts! I miss you. (HUG) x take care!!!!

• GrapeKoolaid said on Mar 30, 2008....

  
  
  Grrr.... 
  
  Don't make me come over there.... 
  
  
  

• Trinov said on Mar 30, 2008....

  Hi, I think that we all get there sometimes. Life is just not so easy. What has helped me survive often is getting into a book, or getting into writing one, especially creating a world that you'd like to be in, with characters you'd like to be around. Sometimes fantasy is the only way to deal with reality. Then you can come out of the paper world and find a balance in your mind and renew your appreciation of what you do have, and the hopes for what you want for yourself.

• I'mNotHungry said on Mar 30, 2008....

  I'm sorry you feel such overwhelming sadness.  I certainly have no "words of wisdom" to offer, but have found that those who've commented above, do.

  Just wanted to stop by and give you a ((((HUG))))

   

• killingme4u said on Mar 30, 2008....

  
  
  i have no words right now.............will you take this?   :))

• queenparanoia said on Mar 31, 2008....

  me too....

• PAPERBACKWRITER said on Mar 31, 2008....

  Dearest Friends,
  
  As you might have noticed, it takes me long to reply to comments in my blogs (I procrastinate and comment everywhere but not in mine!). . .I mentioned this before in my previous blogs, that I have a hard time coming back to what I wrote. 
  
  On the other hand the gratefulness for your comments positively compels me to come back and in the end it is good for me.
  
  I feel inane, and I know the residue of depression is what makes my brain work slowly but still, it does not make it less painful to write and feel inadequate. . .writing have always served as a release but now it is a painful but necessary process. . .
  
  And yes, I am rambling, but I just wanted to put this out of my mind even though I am not making sense. . .I am among friends. . .
  
  Thank you for your patience. . .
  
  Lucy ~
  
  thanks love, I needed that (((hug))). . .Sometimes, I literally want to take a hammer and hit my head with it. . .toy hammer!. . .I wish it will stop grinding thoughts that are making me feel miserable
  
  quietone (((hugs))) thank you, I am so ever thankful for your moral support dearest quiet
  
  evil_twin thank you Kyle. . .I am fighting this but sometimes, I just want to scream: WHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHYYYYYYYYYYYYYY me damnit!
  
  okies, that was good XD thanks for the shoulder and the ear, dear friend
  
  Ginger. . .see, Ginger. . .that is why I am still here. . .I read your words and the words of friends here at SC, and I know I am blessed. . .
  
  . . .to paraphrase what Lucy said, I feel something rotten from within destroying me but because of the people I love, I am not surrendering and giving it the pleasure of winning. . .the dark cold. . .
  
  . . .Thank you for your wisdom and warmth, dear friend. . .I´m sheltered
  
  Memy (((HUGS))) Thank you, I feel the love!!!
  
  
  
  

• PAPERBACKWRITER said on Mar 31, 2008....

  
  Grape XD taaannnks. . .I had fun going through the set of feline creatures on your flickr the day before yesterday. . .had a belly ache chuckle!
  
  Trinov
  
  Hello!  Thank you for taking time to comment on my blog dear Trinov.  I have always found your comments in other blogs enlightening and very insightful.
  
  I had goosebumps reading your words yesterday because it is exactly what made me come in to terms with my depression. . .when I finally accepted it is a part of me.
  
  Although there was a long period of time where I could not write (writer´s block...not even personal letters) and read books (which I did with fervent passion ever since I could). . .I have always seek solace in both.
  
  As a matter of fact the theme of the novel I am working on is about coping with depression with the love and support of family and friends.  If I could make someone, even one read it someday, and say, I will live another day. . .then I will be fulfilled and know all the personal pain was not in vain. . .
  
  
  

• PAPERBACKWRITER said on Mar 31, 2008....

  
  INH ~
  
  Thank you for being here dear INH(((HUGS))). . .I have read your struggles, and I admire your will. . .I believe like so many, you will make it!  Aren´t we all here in SC because we have not given up?!
  
  killing ~
  
  GLADLY, sweetie and GRATEFULLY : X
  
  
  queenie
  
  
  (((HUGS)))
  
  kapatid? are you echoing the sadness in my heart or the words of killing?
  
  sorry, brain is slow : /
  
  i hope you are well. . .you are one of those i take inspiration and draw strength from . . .
  
  
  

• PAPERBACKWRITER said on Mar 31, 2008....

  
  
  Again. . . dearest friends, thank you for taking time to give comfort, and words of encouragement. . .thank you for unending patience for my disjointed ramble. . .
  
  . . .I can never thank you all enough. . .I can only show my gratefullness, by not giving up. . .I won´t. . .I´ll try. . .
  
  
  

• I'mNotHungry said on Mar 31, 2008....

  Maybe it will help if we try together - accountability!
  Take my hand and I'll take yours, and together, we'll make it.

   

• queenparanoia said on Apr 01, 2008....

  thank you... =)

• wishyouwerehere said on Apr 04, 2008....

  So much said in so few words - well chosen and eloquent if painful ...
   
  For people who are sensitive to the deeper nuances of existence, the inherent uncertainties in life can create a great deal of discomfort.
   
  I wish you well, Paperbackwriter.  Thanks for welcoming me to SoulCast!

• biglove said on Apr 09, 2008....

  Paper~ I think it is sad and beautiful at the same time. Your words sum it up so simply, I loved it.

• PAPERBACKWRITER said on Apr 09, 2008....

  
  
  
  I apologize it took me too long to come back here. . .I finally overcome the last cycle of my recent depression, and have to attend to RL duties & plans that were shelved because I could not function. . .I have read most of your blogs, and although on one hand I´m glad you will understand me because you have all gone through what I did (and still going through) it pains me in some way too. . .
  
  
  

• PAPERBACKWRITER said on Apr 09, 2008....

  
  INH ~
  
  I like that word - accountability. . .
  
  [reaches out, and clasps hand tightly]
  
  
  queenie ~
  
  (((yakap na mahigpit)))
  
  
  wishyouwerehere ~
  
  I´m glad you are here in S,  wish! (((hugs)))
  
  biglove ~
  
  Thank you, for taking time to leave warm words behind. (((embrace)))
  
  Most of the time, I´m choked and can´t express what is raging in my heart nor the storm in my mind. . .poetry helps. . .
  
  Your words means a lot to me <3
  
  
  
  
  
  
  

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