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I'm feeling overwhelmed this morning.
 
I found out last night that my Aunt Sissie died yesterday.  I'm very sad about that.  I haven't seen her in years (much like my gramma) but it still feels pretty awful.  I feel like somehow I let her down these past years.  I was so wrapped up in my own drama that I didn't take the time to send a note or anything.
 
I am loving having the kids here this week, but ..........
 
Financially it's really stressing me out.  I'm already short due to the dress and frame expense and now I am feeding two "black hole" teenagers.  I feel like I'll be catching up financially for a month, and then they'll be graduating so that I'll put myself back into hock financially again.  I don't see the end of my stretched and broken budget.
 
What the heck is wrong with me?!!! (and no, it's NOT the PMS thing)  My life is no more or less pathetic than anyone else's.  Why am I feeling so mopey?
 
 


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  • secretlife said on Mar 27, 2008....
    some days it does feel like we're rats in a cage, huh?
     
    i just got my february gas bill yesterday ($747). 
    i keep thinking i got a 3% raise for this year, and my expenses go up by 10-15% every damn year........how'm i supposed to keep up with it?
     
    i've decided that i'm going to try your diet.  then maybe i won't care....
     
  • uniquely-ironic said on Mar 27, 2008....
    SL - I'd die if I got your gas bill!!  I think the stress diet is a good idea.
  • diabolicdame said on Mar 27, 2008....
    Hey.. I'm sorry about your aunt.. And as far as the budget goes, even if you have to be catching up for a month, its still worth it to share these joys with your kids, rite? You'll be ok.. you'll be just fine.. tomorrow is a new day and it brings new light.. today is just suckey but tomorrow will be good. :-)
  • uniquely-ironic said on Mar 27, 2008....
    DD - I'm sure you're right.  Some days you're the hammer, other days the nail.
  • diabolicdame said on Mar 27, 2008....
    Yeah true.. I hate being the hammer though! It totally sucks!
  • uniquely-ironic said on Mar 27, 2008....
    DD - better than being the nail and getting pounded.  At least for me.
  • killingme4u said on Mar 27, 2008....
    hey.....first sorry about your aunt.and sorry your feeling so down and blue.don't know what to say that could help but  i get you.and i would'nt wanna be the nail either.well take care......see ya around   :))
  • uniquely-ironic said on Mar 27, 2008....
    killing - thanks, and I'm sure it will pass.
  • wombat said on Mar 27, 2008....
    I'm sorry about your aunt--I know how it is to hear news like this and realize you haven't stayed in touch like you maybe would have--but life is moving so fast for everyone it seems these days... I hope your blue mood will pass soon.  I get them often, and then seem to spring back.  I guess that's just how it is and isn't going to change.  I smiled at your words, "feeding two black hole teenagers" though... I know how that is too--well, I did.  I kind of miss my son and his friends raiding the fridge of every good loose thing they could find, and cranking up music in his room late at night.  I know now that it's a good sound!
  • uniquely-ironic said on Mar 27, 2008....
    wombat - thank you, I'm sure it's all pretty normal to be a little blue right now.  The added pressure of keeping my two fed on my slim budget just makes it a little more so.  I am happy to feed them but it boggles the mind how much sheer mass they consume each day.
  • wombat said on Mar 27, 2008....
    I remember having to feed them on a budget--no doubt about that.  Thank goodness for Sav-A-Lot back in those days....(discount grocery)
  • uniquely-ironic said on Mar 27, 2008....
    wombat - the joke in our house is to kid my daughter that she ate a "X" that was as big as her head.  Somehow eating something the size of your head is very funny.
  • wombat said on Mar 27, 2008....
    Been around other places, and just saw this, but am a bit confused about "eating an "x" as big as her head...  sorry for being a dunce here....!  An expression I haven't heard, I suppose?
  • queenparanoia said on Mar 27, 2008....
    {{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{HUG}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}
     
    sorry about youre aunt. you could get this through. believe in that.
  • Eilan said on Mar 27, 2008....
    I'm sorry about your aunt.  I have an Aunt Sissy, BTW.
  • uniquely-ironic said on Mar 28, 2008....
    wombat - for instance "Wow Sweetie!  I can't believe you ate the whole pizza.  It's as big as your head!!!"  Somehow that cracks both of us up.
     
    queenie - thank you for the hug.  Yes, I'll get through it.  Just having to deal with it is sad.
     
    Eilan - thanks.  I hope your Aunt Sissy is as special as mine was.  Then again, with a name like Sissy I'm sure she is.
  • Alyss said on Mar 28, 2008....
    {{hugs}} for you UI.  The finances usually leave me feeling blue too. =(
  • uniquely-ironic said on Mar 28, 2008....
    Alyss - pesky money issues! *gives stink eye to empty wallet*
  • silverwhisper said on Mar 30, 2008....
    o wow, u-i i'm so sorry about your aunt!

    [hug]

    look, sometimes we get into these weird moods where everything can be going our way and we're still in the dumps. happens to everyone, IMX (i mistrust people to whom it doesn't!), and honestly, i think that the best way to get out of it is to tell yourself that you want to be out of it.

    make a deliberate effort to smile, say something nice to someone and mean it. i find that the response i get back usually has me feeling better in seconds. :>

    ed

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