• anonymous said on Mar 25, 2008....

  Hey, I have been reading some of your articles. I am probably not qualified to recommend a solution to you. I wont. I have never married. But, I can almost feel your pain. U need to find strength through prayers or God for your sanity, your marriage and ur family. This is your call sister to fight. Think about this! I am not quite sure giving up is the answer. Is there any body ur husband + you can talk to. A professional maybe? Your parents, his parents? Siblings?
  I better go. Not sure if I am making sense. I havent prayed in a while. I will pray tonight for u. Somehow, I just know, if u hang in there, everything willbe alright.
   
  x

• motherofchicken said on Mar 26, 2008....

  Wow...sweetiedoc, your situation is so delicate it seems like! Since you are a physician I won't propose that perhaps you suffered from postpartum - but that's the first thing that came to mind...I've heard that it often comes with anger issues! I can relate to having had some anger problems too and i can so relate to depression seriously ruining my relationship...it's so hard to watch how your actions (which you almost don't feel like you can control) result in the bitterness and alienation of your loved one.
  
  I don't know what to recommend, except the benign - rest, vacation?, meditation, perhaps tai chi...something to center the mind and calm the anxiety that obviously triggers anger.
  
  You are so right I'm sure that many doctors suffer from depression. I've heard that about dentists too...It's just unfair that us "patients" don't want to be reminded directly of it, but its so human? Why do we expect doctors to be superhuman!
  
  Hang in there!
  

• andora said on Mar 27, 2008....

  hi sweetiedoc,
  
  in my not so humble opinion: being well-adjusted to a sick society is not a sign of good health, it is instead, a sign of denial.
  
  as a mother and a grandmother I believe that what the mainstream calls 'postpartum depression' is really a natural response when a new mother checks out the world they brought a new soul into and realize how very dis-functional it is. It is natural for mothers to want to give their children the best future...
  
  I wrote a revolutionary thesis upon the nature of the emotional body and I feel it straightens out the paradoxical issues of depression, bi-polar disorder, rage etc... I tried to keep it simple and am happy to say that it is scientifically based. Or, in other words, is not just a metaphysical concept. I published the vital info at my website www.pangasm.org. I would love your feedback, especially since you are both a mother and a doctor. Best of luck, and for what its worth, you are lucky there were barriers to you getting anti-depressents :)
  
  aloha
  

• sweetiedoc said on Mar 27, 2008....

  Thank you all for your comments and concern.  I continue to have some bad days, but some good.  I definitely feel that exercise is lacking from my regimen.  I used to go to the gym at least 3 times a week for the last several years until I started a new job a few months ago.  My day starts at 7 am and I do not get home until 6, pick up my baby, go home, feed her, make dinner, eat, put her to bed.  Then I work on dictations and go to bed.  Then all over again... I want to go to yoga or pilates or tai chi so badly but when? I barely have time to breathe. 
   
    Sometimes I feel I need to change my entire personality and way of thinking... to be honest, I wish I could go back to the person I once was years ago.. before medical school.. before residency...  I wonder how many other doctors feel this way... that their entire personality changed after doing medicine.  I really feel it does.  And that affects your everyday life and relationships.  You have to become cold and distant in keeping "distance from patients" so as not to become emotionally involved.  I feel I have become so cold. 
   
    I might try to do some yoga at home in the evenings and see if that may calm my inner soul.

• andora said on Mar 28, 2008....

  I completely agree with exercise as a great solution. Even better if our daily routine naturally incorporates this.
  
  My daughter is one year away from being a doctor of Chinese Medicine and she is a trained Wilderness First Responder. She plans on having a clinic on our farm where we will be farming medicinal plants...i think this is a good mix as far as creating a routine that is well-balanced.
  
  As I read your routine I got depressed. No husband to be Mr. mom?
  

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