Fear surrounds me
Like a pillow on my face
Suffocating me quickly
Without a single trace
Self-hatred is what I live for
Its how I’m going to die
For nothing will ever change
To stop these tears I cry
For nothing will ever stop her
She’s stronger than you and me
She has her arms around me
She’ll never set me free
For my strength is what she lives for
My self-hatred, fear and pain
She knows just how to hurt me
How to make me scream in vain
My whole world is a disaster
Its all come crashing down
I’m stuck within this body
In my blood I slowly drown
You see the visible markings
Some they go so deep
I remember when I made them
I sat and watched my blood seep
All these self made scars
Go so much deeper than the skin
The ones invisible to your eyes
Continue deep within
Ana you have everything
What more do you want
I won't put up a fight
But I'm sick of putting up a front
I’m so sick of smiling
When all I want to do is cry
I’m so sick of laughing
When I really want to die
