How Am I Supposed To Get More Views?
Other than sending my link everywhere, which I dont want to do, I used to get like 40 views within a day, now im lucky to get 10 in a week. V.V
So I saw kaylie and krista today, that was nice...kaye kindof ran off when she saw me, well not exactly...but thats how it felt, i feel like that person that you know as an aquaintence and you dont really talk to. I feel like I dont have any friends.
I used to talk to kaye alot.
I used to talk to Iceis alot.
I used to talk to Jordyn and Jennie and Shuz and a lot of my friends alot...so whats changed?
Have I changed to where no one wants to talk to me or be around anymore?
what is the point of trying to talk to someone that doesnt want to talk to you?
NONE.
so I end up not talking to anyone.
Its either that or everyones lives are moving on without me and i have no life, left where i am, was, and still will be..
its an odd feeling knowing that your life is going no where.
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I think that people like talking to people like themselves. And this proves to be a problem for me becuase I ... am not like anyone I know. And it sucks.
I think that people like talking to people like themselves. And this proves to be a problem for me becuase I ... am not like anyone I know. And it sucks.
I think I will kindof stop firespinning. I dont really talk to anyone in that group anymore. I dont really do anything with them.
None of the colorguard girls like me. I know that.
The derby girls are nice to me but I have only gone to two things for derby.
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Why is it that when someone feels like they are falling out of their friends ... eyes, that they also feel like they should just say, "well you are stupid enough to walk away, Im smart enough to let you go."
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Im looking forward to next week,, spring break. Kindof fun I guess... boring. and no school. so it will fly by becuase I have nothing to do.
I hate no structure, i HATE it when I dont have everything planned out...where i am going, who will be there, what we are doing, for how long...i think that has something to do with the fact that all the times that something bad has happened i didnt have all of these factors known...
but really,, who does?
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I think that I should stop talking,.. I miss someone. I dont really know who.
Thats a lie.
I do know.
I just wanted her to know that I do. I miss you. And I want to talk to you more than I do. Could you do that for me?



