I cannot believe how much hate i feel for you right now. how many times do I let you do this to me? We set a time to meet, stupid stupid naive me is looking forward to it all week , and of course of course, you email me late the night before to say it'll be a late night, and can we push the time tomorrow. Obviously I mean nothing. Obviously you'd rather get drunk and stoned. And why the hell do I care? Why does it matter to me? We should have just an amicable working relationship, nothing to fret over. And here I am with my heart torn. Again. I hate you. I wish I never met you. Sometimes I really do.
I didn't have the guts to remind you that time of the fox story in the Little Prince. Yes, here's how it goes. Fox offers himself to be domesticated, tamed by the Prince. He patiently explains to Prince that there is a responsibility to that. If you come at 4 o'clock every day and stand at the field, I'll get used to seeing you then, and then I'll start getting excited around 3, anticipating our meeting. And the wheat in the field all of a sudden won't be just wheat, it'll remind me of the color of your hair. And if you don't come one day at 4 o'clock, how sad I would be! And I can't remember what Prince decided, but maybe he didn't think he could keep such a promise and decided not to tame Fox in the first place.
So yeah! I'm sad, and I'm disappointed again. And I am mad because I know, I'll let it go and I'll want to see you anyway, and then I'll just enjoy your company and you'll convince me it's fine, and I'll believe you, and on and on. And then you go away, and you're really gone, for a while, until you come back again, and it all repeats. Why oh why do I care????
motherofchicken posted on Mar 21, 2008
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evil_twin said on Mar 21, 2008....
There is nothing more annoying than a person who disregards you like that. If I tell someone I'm meeting them at a certain time, I'm there. I hate it when people are late or when they cancel at the last minute, or rearrange stuff. Because it does feel like they don't care. And that they're just working you into their busy lives for your benefit. That sucks :-(
-evil_twin LA
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GrapeKoolaid said on Mar 21, 2008....
The Little Prince is one of the most important books in my life... I loved it as a child and I still do... It has had a tremendous impact on me and is partially responsible for shaping the person I became...
I'm sorry for the pain and the disappointment...
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motherofchicken said on Mar 21, 2008....
evil_twin...I know, I'm one of those punctual people too, and it's always such a betrayal to be stood up or left waiting...especially the realization that the other person doesn't even think anything of it...(after all, they're always late...)
grape... i was wondering if other people liked and are familiar with this book - it's the same for me! It was a really important book and shaped me too in a way...Lots of people think of it as a children's book, but it's really an adult graphic novel.
and yes...on the pain and disappointment note, what i hate most is myself, as i just came back from meeting this person, and as i suspected, i got charmed again into having a good time and not being able to say how much it hurts me that i'm being disrespected and left behind....sigh....life is complicated. -
motherofchicken said on Mar 21, 2008....
haha! and by adult graphic novel, I meant a serious book for adults...hah. not a pornographic text :) just looked at it and realized how it looked! -
GrapeKoolaid said on Mar 21, 2008....
Sure, it's a great book for kids, but St. Exupery put a lot into that book. It's important for adults to read it, too, IMO. There are many grown-ups who's forgotten a lot of the lessons in the book.
Oh and btw, the fox does befriend the Little Prince and is heartbroken when he has to go away. He weeps, if I'm not mistaken.
It is better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all, no? I think that's what St. Exupery was getting at. Like how the fox will see the golden wheat field and be reminded of the Prince's hair... The memories will always stay with him, you know?
Yeah... Life is never easy... Nor should it be, though. If life was easy, you'd be soft. No... Life has to be difficult. It makes you hard... There's a part in all of us that wants to be soft, but in being hard, we're better prepared for the journey ahead.
Just some thoughts...
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